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[skybluelatte]

Happy Birthday Jeno!!! 💚🐶💚

[thesleepingninja]

I used to be a devout and religious Catholic. But the thought that the people from my religion are the same privileged people who look down on the deprived, judge their neighbors, and blindly follow and idolize a self-centered murderer irks me too much. Can you blame me? I do not want to be associated with the kind of garbage who kneels within the church walls and drowns in the scriptures, but gives no importance to the sanctity of human life and lawfulness of human rights.

But I still want to believe in a powerful being somewhere, because I want to believe that somewhere out there, good exists. I want to believe that this shitty government is not the end I will get to see when I die. I want to believe that the people who died in extrajudicial killings and collateral damages got to a place where the kind of justice I dream of exists. I want to believe that their journey does not end where the men who put bullets to their heads end up roaming free and being applauded by a narcissistic asshole and his rose-colored enablers. Because I don't want that kind of god.

And if a good place like heaven indeed exists, I truly hope and pray that they're all there, content and happy and free.

[thejwangblog]

MCOUNTDOWN LIVE PERFORMANCES

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[thejwangblog]

GOT7 OFFICIAL TWITTER UPDATE:

GOT7 ON MCOUNTDOWN

[soul-baggage]

Ang sarap sa feeling ha, na tuwing nahihirapan ka ang solusyon mo is bitawan ako hahah. Every time.

[my-yellow-ochre]

I wanted to isolate.

These past few days I felt slow yet time was not sympathizing with me. Time was unforgiving and forgiving. It never bowed down for anyone’s desire yet it is forgiving enough to hand us just enough chances if we acknowledge it. 

I just wanted to control my every time again. It feels like I was detached and I couldn’t do anything to land on my feet once again. Every day just got duller until I realized I was unlucid. I was unproductive and demotivated. My throat constricts whenever I eat food and I just want to purge everything because I feel so unhealthy. 

On top of these I was too immersed in social media. I had to take a break but I have people whom I talk with on a daily basis. I did not want them to feel dejected so I have always concealed my emotions and put theirs first. But now I said I want to have my time and isolate and when I woke up in the morning I was feeling better. I finished the book The Time Keeper by  Mitch Albom and finished Midsommar. I felt good. I like productive. Next on my list would be to study French and continue my drawing lessons. I will continue waking up at 7AM and working out while intermittent fasting 16:8 and eating from 12NN to 8PM.

 I will start functioning again.

[soul-baggage]

Gusto kong mag tagal kami, i swear. Promise. Pero i can't say na this is not hurting me. This habit of hers when everything gets too much for her, her first choice is to cut me off until she's better. Well I'm glad she feels better after pero tangina nakaka damage emotionally. To be something a person can just end and fix anytime they want, wow a dream hah. Ano ako excess baggage. Grabe i feel the love ha. Ang sarap pala sa pakiramdam na pinipili ka when it's convenient, hindi pala ako pang hardships. Through good lang walang bad. Binibitawan sandali pag humihirap na tas babalikan sa madadaling parts ng buhay. Nakaka ubos naman grabe.

[soul-baggage]

It's either we are or we aren't. No in between.