#05102025

[ruzgartelefonu]

[yingpariss]

"Tốt nhất là hãy sống một cuộc đời thoải mái nhất có thể. Đừng nghĩ quá nhiều, có những chuyện, những người, những việc, vốn dĩ nó đã phải là như thế, nhiều thứ bạn muốn tính cũng không thể tính được. Vậy nên hãy cứ sống thật hạnh phúc ngày hôm nay đã. Hãy làm điều bạn thích, nói với người bạn yêu là bạn yêu họ nhiều như thế nào, hãy tận hưởng nó một cách trọn vẹn. Dù sao thì ai cũng chỉ sống một lần."

[carmenlire]

I started a new job and it's in management so it's a lot more desk time than I'm used to. all of which to say, I've gained like 10 pounds in the past two months and i feel fucking awful. I'm going on vacation in a couple weeks to the beach and I haven't weighed this much in like 3 years and i just feel so insecure and self-conscious.

it really sucks that I was pretty much the same weight for 2-3 years (like a 7 pound range) and even though i hadn't reached my goal weight, i had never been so consistently low/in my good range for such a long time. it seemed i had reached an equilibrium between how much i ate and my weight and my activity level. I was actually eating consistently and having actual meals and felt like I had finally gotten the hang of prioritizing whole foods but still being relaxed/indulging. I wasn't constantly denigrating what I ate or my weight. I kinda ate whatever I wanted because, it seems, I had finally realized how to eat intuitively, without agonizing over every decision. I think i was calmer about myself/body than i'd ever been before. sure I'm always going to want to lose more weight but i was actually pretty chill, especially in hindsight.

but now, since i spend like 95% of my time sitting at a desk all work day, I've gained 10 pounds and summer is literally right around the corner and it just sucks. like now i have to relearn a new equilibrium. It's crazy that apparently i had (finally!!) realized how to balance my eating and activity-- i just /intuitively knew/ how much to eat to maintain my good weight range-- and now i apparently have to really scale back my calories and dial up my activity level. it's just so daunting and discouraging.