#072219

[stayriightthere]

Today I texted my mom when I was feeling low.

Progress.

[a-rain-nako]

My heart is so happy. Iloveyou my baby 💖 Sorry sa mga pagdududa ko na baka di mo na ko love, paranoid gf mo 😅 Sobrang mahalaga ka lang sakin at mahal na mahal kita! Salamat ngayong araw, pinaramdam mo sakin kung gaano ako kahalaga at gaano mo ko kamahal. Walang kasing saya na alam kong mahal na mahal mo ko, lalo na pag kasama kita. Alam kong mababasa mo 'to. Pero di ko alam kung kelan hahahaha. Mahal na mahal kitaaa, Mark Vincent. Di ako magsasawa na ulit ulitin yan sayo. You deserve all the happiness in the world. Sorry if I made you feel that you are weak sometimes. But honey it's not. Always remember that even if we fight a lot, you will always be the love of my life, my strength and my love. Always, always. Iloveyouverymuch. I don't want to lose you. I'm so afraid that one day, I'll wake up and you're not mine anymore. I don't want that to happen. Akin ka lang haaaa mahal ko 💞

[boyneriver-fraser]

Outlander Custom Pops by tool8smart on Deviant Art

The Dunbonnet, S3E2 Surrender,

Alexander Malcolm, S3E5 Freedom & Whisky

 Roger & Brianna, S3E5 Freedom & Whisky

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July 22, 2019

#Outlander #Custom Pops #tools8smart #The Dunbonnet #Alexander Malcolm #Brianna Randall #Brianna Fraser #Brianna MacKenzie #Roger Wakefield #Roger MacKenzie #Dragonfly In Amber #S2E2 Surrender #Voyager #S3E5 Freedom & Whisky #137 #072219

[thisdaintylife]

i’m tired and done with my brain. all i’ve ever wanted is to be happy and feel okay but ever since i started college, i’ve felt so lost. i don’t know what i’m doing anymore, not that i really ever had. it’s as if i don’t really feel anything anymore, i feel like a goddamn robot. my emotions don’t seem sincere. it’s like they’re a result of my brain analyzing and producing the emotion i’m supposed to feel and how i’m supposed to react.

before i wanted to live in the moment but i think i went to far. somewhere along the line, instead of focusing on the present to make myself happier, it’s made me even more miserable. i don’t even know who i am anymore. i used to have this strong sense of self. i knew who i was and i was largely okay with my personality. now i’m almost a completely different person and i don’t know whether that’s a good or bad thing. i suppose it’s normal to change in college but i want to go back. i hate feeling like i’m aimlessly wandering, floating around with no real purpose or drive. i want to feel things again. i want to be passionate about something and succeed for once in my life. i’m tired of living like this. i’m trapped in my mind and i hate it. everything i do is an escape but even that isn’t enough.

[laurencitaaaa]

I just don’t want to feel anything for a long long time.