"You are all my best friends."
I have so much love for them, I don’t think they understand. Maybe they do but it’s just hard for them to express it to each other. I want to cherish all the time that I have with them even if they don’t want to be around because it saddens my heart, mind, and soul that these next few weeks could be my last days with them. I want to cry my eyes out every time I think about it. With all my heart, I love you all.
I can’t leave. I really can’t. This new place has nothing to offer me. Here I have been accepted into places that have changed my life for the better and continues to every single day. Down there I won’t get the same. This new place is for my parents, and my siblings and I are just there to tag along because we are their responsibility forever until we are married and ready to live on our own. Really, we will never be able to live without our parents as long as they are alive. They are the only ones who will provide for us willingly without hesitation, without greed, without hate, with love, with compassion, with all that they are, our parents. But this decision has really messed up my life. No exaggeration or obnoxious added saying this. Both my parents and I know the pros and cons for my future. Unfortunately, we have more cons than pros.
At the end of the day I want to know that I am still here with my family (all of my relatives) and my best friends. They all have their own lives. Because of that there will be a time where we all go our separate ways and may not be able to see each other as much as we do now. I want them to know that I will ALWAYS be there for them. They have a COLOSSAL place in my heart. Make my heart complete. All glory to God, though. I would not love these beautiful creatures without the love of Him, our great king up above.
Cherish the times you have with the ones you hold close to your heart. So many times this has been said. So many times this has been taken for granted. You truly never know what could happen next.
