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[petsboutique]

Durvet Safeguard Goat Dewormer, 125ml

Safe-Guard Suspension 10% is used to remove and control stomach worms in goats. Also helps to control lungworms, stomach worms and intestinal worms in beef and dairy cattle. Read more at http://petsboutique.org/durvet-safeguard-goat-dewormer-125ml/

[erikairene]

September

This month brings some memories and one of them is on a certain day that takes a toll on me. I just wish it can just swing on by quickly like February.

[nighthawksss]

I've never loved anyone as much as I love you two. There isn't a day that goes by that i dont think about you. 

[nighthawksss]

Remember how you asked me what color you should dye your hair? I don't think you should dye it anything. Keep It the way it is. Don't cut it don't dye it, let it be natural. Try to keep yourself as natural as you can because when you aren't trying Taylor, that's when your the most beautiful. When your sitting there with your hair tied back in your sweat pants an hoodie that's when i love you the most. This weekend i've done a lot of thinking an my mind has shifted from loving you to wanting to let you go over and over again, but i can't do it. I can't do it not because I can't. It's because I don't want to. its like my mind is set on you and i can't shake it. I try so hard, but i can't i can't get you out of my head or my heart. I can try and fill the void of you being gone with something else but that will never work because thats not how my life is suppose to be. I know I fucked it up so bad, and i know i was an selfish asshole, I was everything i shouldn't have been but i never stopped caring about you. I never stop making sure you where okay before myself. That's why i wake up with you at 4 in the morning when you are sick. that's why i take care of you when you are sick its because I might have done all the wrong things, by the way i acted but i always put you before myself. I always had to make sure you where okay. I'm sorry, I can't tell you that enough. If i could change it all i would. but i can't.

This is what I would've sent you tonight if i didn't decide not too. If i didn't hold all my feelings inside and always seen like shit about them.. I love you. I hope you know that. 

[nighthawksss]

There's no one in the world who can make me smile like you do, or make me feel this rush of butterflies whenever i see you. I miss you all the time when you are gone and even when you are sitting with me. The way you lay next too me and look at me makes me feel like there's nothing else in this world that i could ever want. I Have everything in my arms. Or when you are sleeping next to me and i want you hold you constantly cause i don't want you to go anywhere. We were together for 2 years. but now when i look at you i have a new found love for you. the old love is still there but the feelings are stronger then they ever were. It feels like I've an a sudden realization that you are everything i could ever want. I know i was an asshole and i know i was always mean to you, but I want you to know that you are the most important person in my life. You are an amazing person, you try so hard and you deserve all the best things in the world. You are everything to me. Every thought i have. Every choice I make I still make them as if you are in my life. As if we still live together. I do this because I love you, I love you so much that i can't let you go. I've tired. I've tired to hate you many times, but I can't do it. I can't let you go and walk away from me. I need to have you, I've never needed to have anyone before. I've never needed to see or be around anyone. I hate when you leave cause I never know if you are going to come back. I'm no longer jealous, I was jealous before but i know that if you are suppose to be with me you will come back to me and i will wait tell that day. You've become such a big part of me because you are my best friend, and the love of my life. I can't see anything without you being apart of it. I love you so much, you still make me as happy as i was the first day we got together.

[nighthawksss]

Isn't even my girlfriend anymore, but i wanna do such awesome things for her! She looks at my tumblr, so i can't tell you guys what. But its gonna be awesome!

[nighthawksss]

All i want is for you to miss me as much as i miss you.

[nighthawksss]

Everyday I think about what my life was like with you. even though its only been a few weeks, this time without you feels like its been much longer. Feels like I've been gone forever. But then again when we were together i felt like i was with you my whole life. I think about you everyday, I think about your smile. I think about your voice. I think about the taste of you lips, or the feeling of you lips on my neck. I remember everything. All I want more then anything is to be there with you. Being the family we both worked so hard to have. I want you so badly that it kills me. Sometimes i can even stand it. When we are together  I want to hold your hand and touch your back when we walk. I miss the things i hated the most. I miss them because i know that i won't ever get to have those things again. I won't be able to feel your hair in my face when i'm trying to sleep. Or the pain in my arm when you fall asleep in my arms. I would do anything to feel that tingling in my arm again. I would do anything to be woken up at 2 in the morning because Owen can't sleep. Too hear you scream for me in the shower cause you forgot a towel. I miss texting you when i would be in the other room. You keeping me up all night because you wanna talk. I would do anything for those conversations. Too hear you tell me about the things in your life, like we don't know each-other. you coming home to me and being there with me on the couch. me falling asleep when you play with my hair or my ear lobes. Or to hear you tell me you love me out of the blue. The way you'd look at me When we're laying in bed after making love. The way you'd whisper you loved me.. Everyday I feel like I'm losing you minute by minute. Wishing i could Just make it all up to you. Make you see that everything we ever had wasn't worth giving it up. What we had was something we'd never have with anyone else. Nothing can replace the place you have in my heart, and i hope that one day we will be able to pick up where we left off because i'll always be here waiting for you. I'll never want, need or touch anyone else. The only person i need is you. I need you for the rest of my life. I need you there when things get hard, and i need to be there when you need to cry so i can hold you and tell you everything is going to be okay. I love you so much and i hope you know that.