✌✌: 09292017: Start of Something New 💖
Buzzt, buzzt! Buzzt, buzzt! Buzzt, buzzt! My head felt the repeating vibration coming under my pillow as my alarm kept on ringing. With my right eye closed, I peeked on my tablet and geez, it was only 4:22 in the morning. Why did I even bother to wake up earlier than usual? Something special it must be! Yuh-uh. Because today is the day, my day -- Ela day, yay! 💖 A smile formed in my face as I thought of happy thoughts. Oh, how good it has been, breathing in and out freely after some time! All thanks to the Almighty Man up above -- God the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit! Hihihi. Unlike what I expected for my birth month, wishing all the 30 days were full of luck, life was the other way as it got saturated, very very draining. I admit that I had a hard time talking to Him because my mind was preoccupied by many things, heart filled with loads of worries, soul that got lost along the way. However, I fought with these lingering nonsense stuff and surrendered myself to G instead. I have come back now, today on my birthday, like a newly baptized person. Cheers to that refreshing moment with God and deep reflection with self, woohoo! Because this is my own kind of meditation. Every person has different ways on how they will calm themselves, right? As for me, this is it. I love the fire when I set thoughts and feels with all my mind, heart, and soul. All those reminders, notes, and words I took with me are just sooo much! Been practicing this routine for years now, it's only when I turned 20 when I got this passionate doing proper unwind sessions but this time I know, today is something. The rainbow finally appeared in my world this morning. And so I believe this day is really, really really really, really, my start of something new. 😊💖🎉 Being motivated first thing in the morning, I was able to carry it all throughout the day! Out of the 365 days, give me just this one please. Huehue. So! I am trying to maximize everything. After all, it is the best version of myself I am trying to reach. I aim for more self-love. As in, all aspects! I made a headstart with my inner soul already so you know what would be next... Physical as well! This is how I will remember my 22nd year that's why I want it to be awesome. So! Just like my feeling qt days, I curled my hair. They are made overnight but also went down at the end of the day because I am a naturally straight-haired girl. Unlike the usual, I did not use my specs today so I would not look like a granny. I really see eyes help in enhancing features. While my OOTD? Extra! Yellow floral sando with a 15-year old brown jacket and black velvet skirt plus high cut boots combination! Overall look resulted to street style but also chic, perfect for my real age. Been weeks since I felt this beautiful again! Hope this continues. Hihihi. Aside from my lovies, some people noticed me today. Funny how the people in the office can't believe I can rock this outfit. That is why sometimes, it is better to look ugly on most days so when the time to shine comes, you will stand out. Hahaha, kidd! Got a natural blush when a co-employee from a different department complimented me that she can mistaken me as a Korean because I am too cute. Yiee! Hahaha. My heart wants to explode because I completed my birthday wish list. Couldn't be more happy with all the things that happened, stuff that began to change, events that are now unfolding. More to come, babe! It's just getting started! *woohoo, 🙌*
And aside from my welcome rites to myself; all those self thingies, my spirit felt even greater because of the people who spent this day with me. Sending tight hugs and sweet kisses with finger hearts! Hihihi. It was Mama who greeted me first. But, my Dada and Kuya Yin had their messages left for me before I wake up. I srsly do not mind who said the first or the last happy birthday. All I know is that I am thankful to all the peeps who remembered me. They are the real ones who has helped me bloom. Hashtag feeling loved! My birthday fell on a Friday. Yup! Even if this was a work day, that means I did not leave the stress zone, I still had a good time in the office. I do not know too? There are many deadlines but, the positive aura just keeps on floating so, I survived it -- that's what's important. Gotta mention our generous boss who treated the September celebrants some unexpected feast. I was late in going home but no regrets because it was such a memorable moment with my new family. Heehee. The best part of the day was after work hours. Nothing feels like home! The whole fam bam was present and that enough is a wonderful gift already. My parents, even sissy, did not go to office because they surprised me with this dinner. Lolo and Lola were there too even if it was a little late already! Aww the cakes, SML!!! Tito Boy and Kuya Yin were present too. And my best friends, Rov with Alkira, her niece who is like my baby already too and Baby (that's her nickname haha)! They are my fam too as I treat them like sisters by blood. And boyfie, he arrived despite his 6PM to 9PM class. All the way from Diliman, he rushed here. Sweet sweet these people! Sadly, no pictures were taken. I know, I know, how can I forget about that?!? I guess, I just learned how to live the now. But trust me, all these moments, they are all in my heart already -- safe and sound like a hidden Yamashita treasure. ✨🎉💕
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Another year was added in my life! Is that a good thing or what? Hahaha! Of course, I am grateful with this life I have had. I do not want to regret anything so wasting my time is not welcome in my vocabulary. Especially this next 365 days! And so? I will proceed to the things I want to say now. *heeheehee* This birthday of mine is way too different than the past years. Maybe, I am really getting old already (but still indenial, lol). I was used to waking up with a birthday surprise but things change and that's okay. It is not the balloons, cakes, and bundings that matter to me now anyway. What do I value now then? My vision in life! All these goals, dreams, my inner peace, and the ways how I can carry all these fantasies come to reality. I believe it is not impossible though! It may take a lot of time, yes, and sooo much hard work, of course but, it can still happen. I am that dedicated now! And actually, I made it today. This ✌✌nd was, is, and will be my Start of Something New and promise, it is for real as this must move me for the love, for the best.
To be honest, I do not know if I am happy with the life I lived before. Or maybe, I am just stressed with the happenings recently. Whatever the reasons are, all that I am sure is that, I want to leave all these negativities, bad vibes, and unwanted events behind beginning today. I am praying that I continually say goodbye to the things I need to withdraw. Like my Start of Something New Step 1: let go and let God. I really wanted a rebirth for myself. I kinda know who I am but I will be true, I am still on the process and I do not mind. I already understand that being oneself is a journey. What I will do instead is to just love myself, Him, and the other people more than before at all times. Besides, I can achieve a better future moving with the now. I can only have the change and progress I want by the things I will do with each of my day. I aim for a thriving self! That's a long way to go but I am on the way, working on it.
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