Therapist said I might be “mixing sex and regression together and forming associations in relationships off of that from lack of care as a child.” I told her I don’t regress during sex, or in a sexual manner. (Context: I told her it’s been too long since I’ve been able to regress as I don’t have a safe person or a safe space for me to allow myself to feel vulnerable) She said she understood. I think she was implying I correlate a parental role with a romantic relationship? I can see how I subconsciously do that. I don’t understand why she worded it the way she did though. Hm. Do not like the word choice. I told her I was disgusted when ppl wanted things from me sexually bcs their main focus is on themselves. I’m uncomfortable in my body so obvious enjoying sex is difficult for me, so my brain associates it as an act of selfishness from another person. I end up angry. A good session today. I feel growth happening. I was able to speak on my disgust for my body in a way she understood.
