Love?
Listen, I know I fucked up really badly… we both know. We both agreed that nothing else would happen so that we could prevent more toxic shit from happening. Yeah it was a while ago and I know you’re so much happier. But honestly, I hate that. We had so much. So much time, so many secrets, sp many vulnerabilities… I think we went to deep tbh. Shit just wasn’t meant to be so intense between us. We’re a bit older now and still growing. I feel differently and I’m sure you do too. Everything was just like a fucked up game of chess. You manipulate me, I belittle you, all because of how much we wanted one another. I still want you… I want my sheets to smell like you again, I want the trails to be less lonely, I need you. I miss everything about you. I miss the way your silky brown hair elegantly falls on your shoulders. I miss the way you look when you laugh. I miss the way you were so strong, even during all that bullshit that happened with your ex. I miss your hazel eyes staring deep into mine. I miss the way you put me over yourself. I love you. I want to hold you in my arms again. I want to stay with you through the long, sleepless nights again. I want to walk down the old brick roads with you again. I want to feel your lips pressed against mine again… You did so much for me. I want to be in your life. I’m ready to change now, just let me.
