#103012

[ijazzyfe]

I’m simply asking for prayers for today... nothing but positive vibes so I can make it through this day, please. I love you. I miss you. I hate cancer so damn much #103012 #teamNicole @itsnicoleduh https://www.instagram.com/p/BpjecPdgMuIH1WLxsJjiDpbUIztTSQGFLKzK-o0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=a70y5obg8rat

[hipstuuurina-blog]

so much people judge my relationship with chad like they know everything about it. but they don't. they don't know how I feel about him and how he feels about me. they don't know that all the shit we've been through together, only made us stronger. they don't know all the little things we do for each other daily. they don't know that in my many times of distraught, he is the only person I will go to and that's what makes him my best friend. they don't know how much we've done to help each other grow into the much greater people we are today. they don't know that even though we fuck up sometimes, we always end up forgiving one another. they don't know the good and bad emotions we go through being with each other. and they especially don't know how much love we have in our hearts for each other. I just hate that people think they know enough about someone's relationship to judge them so harshly. because in actuality, they don't know shit. and it really ain't nobody's business but mine & chad's.

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Dion Waiters — Cleveland Cavaliers

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LeBron James — Miami Heat

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Kobe Bryant — Los Angeles Lakers

[hipstuuurina-blog]

I have to accept that you're leaving. And when you leave you're not only leaving me, but you're also leaving your friends and family. You should spend just enough if not, more time with them than with me. I need to stop being selfish and accept that your time left here, can't all be spent with me.

[hipstuuurina-blog]

I don't even expect you to call and hold a decent, long conversation with me anymore. and that's pretty damn sad.

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People always ask me what's going to happen to Chad and I once he graduates and leaves for college & if I'm scared for our future.

Ha, I'm not scared. I'm fucking terrified of what will happen between us and what the future has to hold for us. I don't know what else to do but hope that in the end, everything will work out to it's best ability. All I know is that I can't lose him completely. He's like my best friend, and there's no way I would be able to give up the kind of connection we have. As long as he's there for me no matter what, even if we aren't together, then I guess that's all I can truly ask for. But I am scared shitless to have to ask him about his future plans and if I'm even in it. I've been meaning to talk about it but every time I get the chance to, I just keep pushing it farther away.