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macklin celebrini makes a blood sacrifice, but it doesn't appease the hockey gods (sharks lose)

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i have TSA Pre✅ now, so i’m rarely in line long enough to get a security line selfie. so here i am at my favorite airport restaurant about to enjoy a cheese & charcuterie plate before flying to fla for thanksgiving with my parents. HI!

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Y’all I had a panic attack today in class. I suddenly started hyperventilating and crying uncontrollably in the storage adjacent to the main room.

This absolutely kind classmate (new friend i hope!) was there when I suddenly broke down and she literally stayed calm, and took me to a quiet place on the stairs, held my hands as my body heaved, helped guide me with breathing in and out, and then when the hyperventilation was lessened slightly she took me to the bathroom to splash cold water on my face. My body was still in panic mode and I was crying, and she warmly, gently asked me what would help. I asked if she could tell me about her day and she talked to me about that as I kept breathing hard, (and I felt WEIRD asking for that), and then we shut off the water. She kept talking to me as if we had all the time in the world and I kept wondering if I was inconveniencing her and I believed that she was only dealing with me because she felt obligated to, and I kept trying to leave the conversation we were having because I thought she wanted to leave, and I was holding her back. She told me not to apologize and said, “You are *not* a burden.” Which… ykno… there’s going to be a journey for me to believe that and know that I deserve love. She also had panic attacks before and she said she knows how much they suck, and that “your body thinks you aren’t safe, but I promise you that’s not true.” She was right. She also can get panicked in crowded places (this wasn’t what caused my panic, but it’s why she isn’t going Black Friday shopping). I somehow ended up briefly talking about Jujutsu Kaisen, among other things, as I calmed down.

I’m realizing just how true it is that I was unloved for most of my life, because I can name 2 people who have shown me the kindness that she showed me, and one of those people is my therapist!! The other I am not friends with anymore. Anyway.. I’m still processing her genuine kindness. Why would she do that. Why would she care about me. She helped me so much..

Also - she likes cats!! And swimming! And nature! I want to get to know her better! She’s a good human :)

And when we exited the bathroom I ran into a girl who literally approached me and complimented my clothing the other week (I looked depressed as fuck eating my lunch weeks ago, and she just came up to me and was so sweet!!! Never met her before, but she noticed me and we had a brief convo on our art classes). Life has its bright moments.