okay im also gonna make a mike post because i miss him so much and i need to be reminded of the good times. first of all, how long he waited for me. sure he dated other girls and i dated other guys but he was always there to be my friend when i needed him and to love me when i realized it. sometimes i get really upset that i missed out on so much time with him but i think it may have been and okay thing because i realized what i didnt want and what i deserved and i learned about myself too. i think its crazy how he is always so positive. i struggle so much and i have a hard time sharing that with him, but he has helped me so much even if i still feel like im in a bad place, it could be so much worse without him. and no its not that “i cant live without him he makes me so happy” stuff its that hes helping me teach myself to be happy with myself first so that i can be a better person. something else great is when we watch horror movies. i used to want to watch horror movies so i could be close to him before us because i liked him so much and i wanted the excuse. but now it such a part of us as a couple and i love it. we also used to have tickle fights but i really just wanted him close again. but we still do that, especially when one of us is sad or upset. and the fact that we can play games together and i get so upset and he always says its okay. hes always there. except when hes at school. theres so much of our relationship thats based on us being together and doing things together that the radio silence drives me crazy. i worry and i miss and i dont know what to do, sometimes i get angry but i know thats not going to help anything but i cant help it. i know hes busy i understand that obviously, hes doing what he loves and how could i say anything about that. i just wish i heard from him more and he had a little more time to put towards me everyday. is that even fair to ask. im not really sure what to do except keep going. i think sometimes im jealous of other couples and the things they get to do together and it makes me feel really shitty that im jealous but i hope in the end itll all be worth it. i saw something the other day that i really want to tell him but im not sure how, it really stayed with me. that just because were young its not bad it just means we can love each other a little longer.