#11thenightlight11

[ghostlazrin]

Olive and Kolbi trauma dumping to socialize because that's the only form of communication within their capability

Raine and The Raven toasting to being so damn good at traumatizing

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[11thenightlight11]

first name basis

ever since i called the raven by its name, the way it watches me has changed. i dont know how to describe it accurately, but a heavy presence feels like the best way to word it. its attitude has changed. whether thats good or bad, i dont know yet. it only makes the noises when i ignore it. i dont know what its trying to say to me. hearing its cawing used to be a reward. now it just sounds like an anthem for this prison

[11thenightlight11]

reflection

ever get tired of yourself? wish beyond hope that someone, something else would come along to distract you, make you forget about yourself. ive been dying for exactly that. no matter where i turn, what i do, if im not seeing the raven, im seeing myself. a little sickening how in a house with no light, theres a huge mirror in the bedroom. especially when the last thing i want to see is myself.

all that to say, i miss all of you. i know it seems like ive just been sitting here doing nothing, but i still dont want you to forget about me

[11thenightlight11]

holidays

well, im still here. its like the more i think about taking a step forward, i get more stuck than before. the few instances i can force myself out of the bed are to retread parts ive already walked through a hundred times. i know the system of the house, or the raven i guess if its whats behind me being here, but i dont know what memories it wants me to rediscover.

but happy halloween to you all anyway. im sorry if the sentiment doesnt seem entirely sincere from me, its just... they were never a big thing for me. always saw them as a concept and societal obligation. but with halloween in particular i can see an exception now. its been reframed for me. because i know that monsters are real. i discovered that after my family and i got to amberbulk.

from the very first day, i remember seeing multiple kinds of strange creatures. the raven, at the least, was one of them. the weird thing about the place is that things like this existing around was normal to them... it never felt normal to me, though. halloween became something equal parts fun and exciting and genuinely terrifying. at first my parents tell me when im going to sleep that monsters dont exist and that im safe. then we get here and by the time of halloween, not only do monsters actually exist, but here humans are still dressing up to be them.

i guess its just been a lot to take in.

[11thenightlight11]

roadblock

the house changed. i woke up somewhere else. i know what i have to do to get out and this is it. i just need to remember anything before the house. i remember bubba, the tree, listening to music and painting my nails with a friend. i dont remember what happened between us tho...