#17.7.

[one-rabbit-every-day]

17.7.

[drawing-every-day-2023]

Travelling

[xhda1449x]

honestly yeah this week sucked and it might suck more but atleast it’s not July The 18. and I need to tell this to myself more to fully realize how lucky I am and how good things actually are.

[xhda1449x]

I wrote a long rant that was basically like “people who make their entire personality on the fact that they’re in a relationship are annoying and uncomfortable for me to be around” and then I just. casually slipped into traumadumping and didn’t even notice

[xhda1449x]

mom keeps talking about that one night as an example of “you hate when things are so loud you can’t sleep, so don’t do anything after your sister goes to bed” but like. it’s very different from that. I mean yes I couldn’t sleep and there were people screaming and just. being super loud in general. But the reason why I couldn’t sleep was because I was probably traumatized. Or retraumatized. Or whatever else it was

and I can’t even tell her because if I did I’d have to explain in detail what happened and then she’d call me pathetic for feeling like that

[xhda1449x]

so weird. so FREAKING weird. how some people just straight up have two different versions of themselves. And it’s not even that. It’s the same person. But they’re so different. How do they coexist. How can someone do Things. And then do something that’s like. the complete opposite of that. BUT NOT REALLY JUST IN *MY* BRAIN IT IS FOR WHATEVER REASON AND THEN I GET BLAMED FOR IT. But I really just. don’t get it. And I guess I can’t. I could never relate to that because I’m just. always like this. I guess it’s normal to have things separate. BUT GOD FREAKING DAMN IT DOES IT FEEL SO FREAKING WEIRD TO KNOW THAT I’M THE WEIRD ONE HERE

and it’s all fun and good until it HITS ME IN THE FACE WITH A FLIPPING BASEBALL BAT MULTIPLE TIMES like “oh hey didn’t you know already?” AND LIKE. MAYBE I DID. BUT THAT’S NOT AN EXCUSE TO BASH MY BRAINS OUT YOU KNOW

but I mean I guess it was a good thing that it happened because now I see it everywhere and I’m able to be like “huh. Weird.”

whatever you think this is about it’s not. Unless you do know EXACLTLY what I’m talking about

[antiimp]

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