(Got mixed up when I tried to copy cos fucked up update)
Darling, call me
Sooner rather than later
It’s back to the nights my heart shakes in my chest
under the weight of life’s uncertainties
You scrolled so far back you found her
I let you know I had to say goodbye so you wouldn’t worry..
But worry was the nights she drove home drunk and didn’t remember how she got there
Worry
Was the panic attacks because she was only the third person in life I’ve ever needed
Worried
Was when she left and my whole world fell to my feet again
Scared
Scared was me not breathing, or breathing too hard
Hoping she’d reply when her actions were clear we weren’t close anymore
We weren’t friends anymore
Despite her telling me she’s glad we’re still friends
That I’m like her best friend
That she can tell me anything and told me things she’s never told anybody
Despite taking me to the beach when my heart was pulling me under
Despite the hot chips and hand holds
The cuddles, and promises
Despite the sleep overs and hanging out at your work
We suddenly were no more than two people who crossed paths and kept walking
By walking I mean it seemed you swam while I was drowning
You were the life saver who saved me then left..
I guess life savers don’t stay but god damn I wanted you to
I wanted you to stay more than anyone.
