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Louis Tomlinson singing Habit, reacting to a fan sign saying “You’re the Elbow That I Can’t Break.” LTWT22: Manchester1 [19.4.2022] 📸 xorainbowlouis
April 19, 2022 - Day 304
Loving making these little leaves in my new project.
SUBTLE
Date: 19 April 2022
Duration: 62 minutes at 10:19 PM
Depth:
I may have been granted access to a whole new depth of mind last night. That’s why my durations ascended for 3 straight sessions only to dip during last night’s session.
There were all the bodily signs of the farthest that I have reached as a meditator so far. There was a pleasant lack of strong trembles. I understand this to be evidence of spinal energies finally seeping into the head. Those blessed energies don’t have to dissipate from the spine anymore as strong trembles when they find the head welcoming enough.
The head, I am beginning to understand, can take life energies with a certain ease. It isn’t the case with the spine. Life energies are a lot of energy for the human body-mind joint venture. If the body is kept still and the mind calmed, then even an ounce of freed up energies is enough to make the body tremble.
I wonder where these energies stay hidden and knotted during all the non-meditating hours. I experience no trembling outside of meditation. In fact, stopping meditation has become my way to stop trembling. Thank God for that though. It would be a medical condition, if I trembled outside of a meditation controlled inner environment.
In case I have arrived at a new depth of mind last night, I will have confirmation for it only after a few sessions. That’s because every new depth of mind that I have ever arrived at before, has been subtle. There have been many micro moving meditations in the past. The attention has moved deeper than before in these sessions from years gone by. But my attention and me haven’t felt or observed the move.
The important thing for me is that I not assume that I didn’t grow last night. If I make the mistake of not acknowledging the subtlest of growth, I risk undoing all efforts to grow my peaceful activities during waking-working hours.
How bad can things even get? Its so much, i dont realise or believe all of this anymore haha