[ soothe ] receiver kisses sender to stop them from shaking / simon & lucy
There was a reputation that came with the title of The Butcher. One, that try as he might, he could never seem to shake. Even after he’d served his sentence, even after his near death- still there were others that would shame him for his past. Despite the truth he uncovered, despite the sacrifice he made, it seemed some could never look past the scars he wore, evidence of who he truly was. A monster to some, a killer to others, one who belonged at the bottom of the sea to them all. There would always be those who despised him- despised them, for trying to find peace after the chaos he’d endured.
It wasn’t the first time someone made a passing comment, usually scoffing in their direction, comments that would leave a bitter taste- but none worse for wear. Never had she heard such vitriol, threatening words, so laced with venom as they simply tried to exist. To think, it was meant to be a date between the two of them, a few drinks at a hole in the wall, time for just the two of them to relax and unwind. Yet nothing could ever be so simple, for the moment they’d try to find peace, it seemed there was always something, someone, that would try to ruin their fun.
It was a rare side of him to see, one that he tried to hide, or perhaps lay dormant, waiting for a memento strike. How it happened in an instant, one moment she was laughing- and the next a hand was on her shoulder. The words almost came too quickly for her to process, strangers barking questions on either side of her, the demand for answers she had no reason to give. Why was he there, why was she with him, wouldn’t she know better than to spend time with a criminal- the grip of strangers hand was enough to leave her recoiling- and he in turn stepped in to ensure it wouldn’t happen again.
Time seemed to slow in that moment, like watching an attack dog bare its teeth and bite. The sound of his knuckles would connect to an unexpecting jaw, a cracking that only she could assume was the sound of something breaking on the receiving end. It was a brief, yet fruitless fight, watching just how quickly The Butcher became a reality before her very eyes. Those around him didn’t stand a chance, watching bloody knuckles fly, and bodies quickly fall to the floor before she could bring herself to react. Violent, brutal, and in truth, nothing she’d witnessed before. The sight alone left her frozen in place, knowing she was responsible for this happening in the first place. If she wouldn’t have asked for a date, if they wouldn’t have come here- if- if-
Her hands trembled at her sides, that fear that gripped her starting to subside, seeing the aftermath of his rage. He did this for her, to keep her safe, bloodied his hands time and time again when he didn’t need to- and shouldn’t have to. It was her fault. Now here he was, living up to the name he tried so hard to move past. Her throat felt tight, that hint of tears brimming her eyes as she’d instinctively reach for him, hands cupping his face as she’d choke out his name.
“Simon-” Nothing more was said, nothing needed to be said, finding her place in his arms as he closed the space between them. Her guilt was tangible, tears slipping down her face as his lips would meet her own soon after. The taste of copper lingered on his tongue, that familiar scent of blood mixed with sweat invading her senses. He didn’t deserve this- he never did- and still he somehow endured for her. “I’m so sorry-” the words fell between each gentle embrace, her fingers tangling in his hair, whispering her apologies between each tender kiss. "-I'm so sorry."