Jul 1, 2025
ahhh, yes.
i love me some overly expressive characters
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ahhh, yes.
i love me some overly expressive characters
wazzup !
i finished The Promised Neverland! yup, even Season 2 :> i hope this isn't some case of my standards being low, considering most people said S2 was insanrly disappointing, but i loved it! the main trio reunion, the Lambda squad, the bond with the main demons, norman, uhh, norman, anddd norman and— OH OH MAIN TRIO + SUB DUOS HUGS (i want js a ray & norman hug tho lowk💔💔💔) AND ALL OF THEM GROWING UP!!!!!! THEYRE SO ADORABLE WAAAAHHHHalso why the BALLS are the adults so tall excuse me.
anyways....
i think i've found a new thing to check out, actually. it's a manga! im no reader at ALL, and as much as i love tpn, i don't think i really see myself reading the manga, but this one looks insanely cool! it's The Summer Hikaru Died !! a horror story, actually, which isn't really my type... at ALL... but hey this looks cool :3 it's to become an anime series startimg July 5th, butttt im impatient, so imma check out the manga soon!
hmm, what else....................
yeah idk lols. im hungry bye
"knowing we only live once, why not live it to the fullest?" -Fly Away by 飯卡
🌸˚˖⋆ ──★ hi !! i'm isabel/isa !! i...
was born on nov. 10, 20XX (a minor)
go by the pronouns she/her
am an isfj-t (as of Aug. 20, 2025)
i like... 💛ֶָ֢୨ৎ── .✦ּ
creative writing (mainly fanfics)
art (drawing/doodling, papercrafts, DIY's)
Link Click (時光代理人), To Be Hero X (凸变英雄X), MILGRAM (by Deco*27)
i dislike... 🍃⋆.ೃ࿔*༄
basic DNI (racism, sexism, bullying, homophobia etc.)
TMI/info/work overload (⸝⸝๑﹏๑⸝⸝)
either being alone or being with too many people for too long... if that makes sense
🌊♡₊˚・₊✧ nice to meet you !!
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so i just watched kpop demon hunters.
its late now, 12:30am so i wont say much, but all i can say is i am so high. i am not gonna be able to sleep until like 3am. genuinely. save me.
so
its 2am where im at andddd.... i cant sleep..... cz i kinda..... finished episode 2 of an elmwood trail in the dark and silence of my bedroom..... and the last few parts were gen so terrifying...... and im scared..... im tense...... uhm...... yeah................
edit: WHY DID I JUST COME ACROSS A POST W A PICTURE OF THE INSIDE OF A VAGINA IM GOJNG TO SOOBBBBBBB 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀
kinda long vent post. language and. crashout. idk.
i hate this. i hate this house. i hate my. parents (sometimes). i hate everything. im tired. im feeling lazy. im feeling unproductive. im feeling guilty. again. and again. and again. and i wanna cry. again and again and again and again and again and again and fucking again.
but im not allowed to. im not allowed to feel. im not allowed to cry. im not allowed to show weakness. no one set these rules besides me. im not allowing myself to do any of this. to feel any of this. not after what's happened. not after the million times ive cried to my parents, thinking they would be a safe space, only to not be able to tell them what im truly feeling and why. not when they've painted this horrible fucking picture of me that's just a sensitive, immature, high school girl whose worries are all, solely, about school stress. how am i supposed to tell them? how am i supposed to tell them about the painful amount of self-hatred o have in me, probably even stemming from their previous reactions? how am i supposed to tell them about my lack of knowledge of myself and why im like this? how am i supposed to tell them about all the nights i've tried so hard to cry silently because i hate them? because im scared of them? because theyre anything but safe like they said they were? "if you're feeling down, you can always tell us." shut up. "we're always here for you.". shut up. "we understand—" NO THE FUCK YOU DOOOOONTNSHUT THE FUCK UP SHUT THE FUCK UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UPP. NO YOU DONT. YOU ONLY UNDERSTAND THE VERSION OF ME THAT YOU ONCE SAW BEFORE AND DECIDED TO STICK TO FOREVER. THE ME WHOSE CONCERNS ARE ONLY SCHOOL STRESS. YOU DONT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING ELSE. YOU DONT UNDERSTAND THE GUILT I FEEL EVERY SINGLE FUCKING TIME I CRY. YOU DONT UNDERSTAND THE FEAR I FEEL TO EVEN FEEL AT ALL. YOU DONT UNDERSTAND THE WAY I DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND MYSELF. AS MUCH AS YOU WANT TO PRETEND YOU'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND THE WORDS "IM TIRED". AT LEAST NOT MINE. YOU'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND THE WEIGHT OF THOSE WORDS ON ME. ONLY ON YOU. ONLY WHAT YOU THINK OF IT ON ME. SO STOP FUCKING ACTING LIKE YOU KNOW EVERYTHING. STOP ACTING LIKE YOU KNOW ME. YOU DONT YOU DONT YOU DONT YOU DONT YOU DONT!!!!!?
and what, are you gonna tell me something like "how are we supposed to understand if you dont tell u—" TELL YOU?????? TELL YOU??????? HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO TELL YOU ANYTHING? YOU DONT TRY TO HIDE YOUR FRUSTRATION WHEN I CRY. YOU DONT TRY TO HIDE HOW IRRITATED YOU GET WHEN I COME TO YOU CRYING . TELL YOU? TELL YOU LITERALLY ANYTHING??? TELL YOU LITERALLY ANY TRUTH???? WHAT A FUCKING JOKE!!!!!!!! IM NOT TELLING YOU ANYTHING IF YOU'RE GONNA KEEP PRETENDING LIKE YOU UNDERSTAND ME. IF YOU'RE GONNA KEEP PRETENDING OR ACTING LIKE YOU'VE GONE THROUGH EEEEEEEEEEVERYTHING I HAVE. IF YOU'RE NOT GONNA EVEN TRY TO BE GENTLE ANYMORE. YOU NEVER WERE. YOU BARELY WERE. YOU NEVER HID ANYTHING. AND THATS JUST MADE ME HIDE EVERYTHING FROM YOU. I HATE THIS I HATE EVERYTHING SO MUCHHHHHHH
im so tired.
i wanna die.
i dont wanna deal with any of this anymore.
i dont wanna deal with myself, just like you probably dont wanna deal with me.
im not allowed to feel anymore.
im not allowed to cry anymore.
so what even is the point
no one's reassurance is enough anymore.
ive become too scared to vent to anyone. my parents, my friends. im scared. what if they're tired of me? they probably are. especially my parents. especially them. im scared to talk to anyone. im scared that they won't understand. or maybe i wont understand. maybe they'll give solutions and i'll just be stubborn and reject. because most of the time i dont even want solutions. i just want... comfort. someone there. someone whose presence still speaks "im here, it's okay," even if they're not saying anything. someone whose presence says they feel for me too. not the presence that's just, "god, stop crying." or whatever.
for the past month, i've literally been talking to my fucking chatgpt for comfort. its so stupid. it doesnt work anymore. it doesn't help me anymore. i want a real person. someone to be with me forever. maybe by my side every second of the day. it sounds stupid. it is. but i cant do anything alone. i cant take care of myself alone. i cant do this.
i cant do this.
vein is a bitch dude this man is so hard to write because of how LITTLE we get of him. like for xia fei, we know that he's extroverted, but is said to fake a smile a lot, dependent on vein, and js silly. yeah theres probably a LOT more to his character, but that's the basis. and for liu xiao, well, he's kinda just naturally a mysterious freak. but for vein, we dont know his sides. we've only seen his "you look tasty 😋😋😋" side + a bit of his lowk insane side, but what else ???? when is he serious ? what's he like during work ?? what's he like to the rest of the staff in the modelling agency ??? who does he let his guard down to ???? how often does he let his guard down and soften ?????? because the only 2 times i've written his character so far focused on him softening around xia fei. but like. what if hes not. how do i write this man without always connecting him and xia fei.
UGGHJHH I NEED TO WRIIIITE FOR HIS BIRTHDAAAYY YOOOOO UGGGGHHHHHHHHHH