February 2020 Review
February has been the study of Runes for me. While I know that should be 100% wrapped up, it’s actually not, since I haven’t done my final ‘big ritual reading’ (which, big is relative, ok). That’s because I’ve actually done a lot and grown a lot this February.
What I’ve Accomplished & How I’ve Grown
- I made a page defining and using examples of Sympathetic Magic, along with the Law of Similarity and Law of Contact. I’ve used these concepts before in magic without really having a name or knowledge behind them, so understanding the concepts a bit more will help me be able to use them a bit more. I’m finding this is a theme; I know whatever I’m reading about, I’ve used it, I just didn’t know it had its own name, its own research to be done, I just did what I felt was right and kept on going in my life without really asking why it was right.
- I read an entire book about the Law of Attraction and have my notes on that, which I plan to reorganize into a page for the grimoire. I’ve already been utilizing this a bit lately without realizing it, simply with how I’ve been trying to approach my daily habits and taking care of myself first; I think that for me personally, I have to allow myself to be what I would normally call “selfish”- but the thing is, if anyone else did what I do (ie: put their mental health before saying yes to being called into work) I would support them and wouldn’t see the action as selfish. I seem to expect more from myself than I do others, and I expect my shoulders to just be able to carry the weight, and I am realizing that unless I support myself when I need to, my spine will snap under the pressure I put on it.
- I’ve moved in with my boyfriend, and we’re in a really good place right now; I have had a lot of fears and insecurities and originally I was going to turn to Tarot/Runes to help me talk this out with myself but instead I simply told my boyfriend all my fears and insecurities while also being able to hear how they sounded out loud and realize they’re completely based around and in past hurts and fear- irrational fear. I think it brought us closer and opened the door to a new level of vulnerability between us.
What Is Still Before Me
- Creating my clay runes so I can do my final ritual reading. This is a project I’ve been really wanting to do so that I can have my own set that identifies with me and resonates with me. I’ve already got a rough plan on how I want to make them, but because they’re to be small clay pieces I’ve had to spend some time researching which polymer clay would be the best. The kind I initially bought was far too brittle and kept breaking when I baked the small pieces. This has been a learning experience both within the runes and just with crafts; however, creating runes and engraving them in the clay just seems like a really rad way to make some witchy candle holders that I can break out, cleanse, charge, and use to amplify my candle magic. Since I tend to use small birthday candles, they don’t have holders that size anyway- I’ve been really wanting to make some for my altar.
- Adjusting to my new store, since I had to transfer with the move. There’s always a period of adjustment, and I think it’ll begin to really even itself out and become a smoother ride when I’ve been here about a month and people really begin to see me as more of a fixture and less of a new person on their turf.