2020 Writing Review
Married ChristmasIt’s the final week of 2020 if you can believe it! I did a post like this last year where I listed all the things I had written throughout the year.
This year, sadly, will be a little smaller than 2019. The pandemic took hold of my writing muse in March and didn’t let it breathe until the end of June, and even then, it had been a struggle until recently. The pandemic took a toll on my mental health, and there were months where I didn’t write anything (between Someone, Somewhere and Brighter is from May to October). You’ll notice there is no coda fic for episodes 12 and 13 and that was because that’s when COVID-19 panic really struck in my area of the country, and I was unable to write them (though they will be written soon).
Despite it all, by the end of June, we took a week-long trip to a beach house, a beach house I know and love, since we couldn’t go to our usual spot in Ogunquit, Maine. It was a responsible vacation with no one with us, not around anyone at all, and only going on the beach in the very early morning and after suppertime when no one was there.
That’s when I started to write my DCBB, ‘Victory’. I wrote 30k during that week and it was like I could finally breathe fresh air again.
It was still a struggle to finish that DCBB, and I thank @cuddlemonsterdean and @malallory for their help with that. And with my Pinefest as well! But when you’re living at your mother’s house with a new puppy and no where to write, I’m surprised I got ‘Victory’ out at all.
So here are some links to the things I wrote this year. It’s not a long list, but I’m hoping 2021 will be fruitful and full of creative energy. I’m finally living on my own again with my writing desk, my white board, and my lo-fi music!
For a preview of 2021, I am going to be working on a lot of fics related to a post-finale world I’m creating based off of things I wanted to see. That will wind up being its own post. I’m excited to get writing in 2021! <3
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And A Happy New Year
[Started in 2019 but led into 2020]
Summary: Is it possible to thank a cursed, constantly breaking car for your relationship? What started as a mutual, hidden crush between Cas and Dean ends up being a first date and kiss just in time for Christmas. But, are they on the same page, and will the holiday magic last?
Details: Rated E | Words: 26,682 | Chapters: 3/3 | Tags: Fluff, Tooth-Rotting Fluff, First Kiss, Secret Crush, Christmas Fluff, Mechanic Dean Winchester, Snowed In, Self-Doubt, Implied/Referenced Suicide, Car Accidents, Frottage, Light Dom/sub, Miscommunication, Anxiety Attacks, New Year's Eve, New Year's Kiss, Happy Ending, Military Families, Minor Character Death, Miscarriage Mention
A Sound of Thunder
Summary: 15x09 ‘The Trap’ Coda | A horrible ending, a good ending, and a hesitant beginning.
Details: Rated: M | Words: 8,121 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Suicidal Thoughts, Insanity, Claustrophobia, Pining, Buried Alive, I Love You, Canon Compliant, Alternate Universe, Panic Attacks, Anxiety, Purgatory, Self-Hatred, Self-Doubt, Coda
2029
Summary: Dean turns 50 but he's not feeling festive due a self-described "mid-life crisis"
Details: Rated: T | Words: 1,681 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Birthday, Existential Crisis, Canon Compliant, Death, Talking About Death, Communication, No Smut, Implied Sexual Content
Clarity
Summary: 15x10 ‘The Heroes’ Journey’ Coda | Cas's trip to Heaven was very much needed, but not for the reasons he told Dean and Sam.
Details: Rated: T | Words: 2,841 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Purgatory, Pining, Leviathans, Self-Reflection, Lies, Heaven, Dean Winchester Prays to Castiel, Prayer
Shibboleth
Summary: 15x11 ‘The Gamblers’ Coda | Having Jack back doesn't fix everything or make everything suddenly okay, but it can keep everyone moving forward until it is.
Details: Rated: T | Words: 1,536 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Anxiety, Pining, Having Faith, Trust Issues
Que Sera, Sera
Summary: A few months into his new human life, Cas comes down with a fever and cough. Usually, that wouldn't be a concern, but now there's a contagious, new illness spreading across the country, and the anxiety that comes along with it.
Details: Rated: G | Words: 4,359 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Part of ‘Lockdown Fest’ Sickfic, Sick Character, Sick Castiel (Supernatural), Covid-19 Related, Pandemics, Happy Ending, Human Castiel (Supernatural), Anxiety, self-quarantine
Someone, Somewhere
Summary: Pinefest 2020 | When Cas is plucked from his and Dean's comfy life in New York to serve his country, their relationship gets put to the test. Trying over the course of the year to keep their love strong through letter-writing, things hit a breaking point when Allied forces launch the largest seaborne invasion in history. The letters soon become a roadmap in rediscovering themselves and each other.
Details: Rated: E | Words: 64,251 | Chapters:9/9 | Tags: Mutual Pining, Alternate Universe - World War II, Love Letters, Unprotected Sex, Infidelity, Consensual Somnophilia, Public Sex, Memory Loss, Aphasia, Dirty Pictures, Dirty Talk, Internalized Homophobia, Hate Crimes, Disability, John Winchester Being an Asshole, Verbal Abuse, Physical Abuse, Slurs, Period-Typical Racism, Suicidal Thoughts, Anxiety, Depression, Emotional Manipulation, Drunk Sex, New York City, Night Terrors, deancaspinefest, Homophobia
Brighter
Summary: 15x14 ‘Last Holiday’ Coda | “We often confuse what we wish for with what is.” ― Neil Gaiman, MirrorMask
Details: Rated: T | Words: 3,831 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Birthday, John Winchester Being an Asshole, Canon Compliant, Pining, Kid Dean Winchester, Kid Sam Winchester
Aperture
Summary: 15x15 ‘Gimmie Shelter’ Coda | How the hell did Cas get a photo of himself in a damn cowboy hat?
Details: Rated: T | Words: 1,754 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Major Character Death, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Character Death, but it's okay because he's alive again, Canon Compliant
Movement
Summary: 15x16 ‘Drag Me Away (From You)’ Coda | It's a familiar situation, a painful one, but Dean knows his place and knows his role, and knows better than to hope for anything different.
Details: Rated: T | Words: 687 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Internal Conflict, Angst and Feels, Self-Esteem Issues, Pining
Separate Ways
Summary: 15x17 ‘Unity’ Coda | Millions of missed chances; Millions of different choices; Millions of ways they came so, so close.
Details: Rated: T | Words: 2,663 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Major Character Death, Alternate Universe, Heaven & Hell, Apocalypse, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Missed Opportunities, Demon Dean Winchester but not the one from season 10
red
Summary: 15x18 ‘Despair’ Coda | "There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of deep contrition, and of unspeakable love." — Washington Irving
Details: Rated: T | Words: 1,043 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Major Character Death, Grief/Mourning, POV Second Person, Pining
Victory
Summary: Dean/Cas Big Bang 2020 | Life has a certain way in Worthington. For Dean Winchester, the last of his family to remain in town, it includes trying to rile up the head of a rival, affluent, and powerful family: The Charlestons. Things were bleak until Dean accidentally stumbles across a captivating member of the Charlestons he had never met before. Castiel has returned home after a miserably failed attempt at becoming a priest post-college. He’s instantly thrown back in the strong grip of his family’s politics but meets a young man in town that shows Cas the door that would help him escape his harsh life.
They want each other, they want a happy ending, but will past histories and family demands threaten that dream, or can they push through the noise for the sake of love?
Details: Rated: E | Words: 81,786 | Chapters:21/21 | Tags: Inspired by Romeo and Juliet, Arranged Marriage, Gun Violence, First Time, First Kiss, Religion, Religious Content, Religious Guilt, Self-Esteem Issues, Self-Doubt, Self-Discovery, First Time Blow Jobs, Public Blow Jobs, Frottage, Anal Sex, Anal Fingering, Teasing, I Love You, John Winchester Being an Asshole, Physical Abuse, Emotional/Psychological Abuse, Dean/Cas Big Bang 2020 (Supernatural), Suicide Discussion, Unprotected Sex
After the War
Summary: “If there ever comes a day when we can’t be together, keep me in your heart, I’ll stay there forever.” A.A. Milne | “So it’s true, when all is said and done, grief is the price we pay for love.” — E.A. Bucchianeri
Details: Rated: T | Words: 1,304 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Major Character Death, Grief/Mourning, Nightmares, Emotional Hurt/Comfort
Married Christmas
Summary: Time has passed since the dust settled and everything had been put "right". Things once seen as impossible in Dean's eyes is now tangible to him. All it needs is a wedding band and the promise of a future full of love and happiness.
Details: Rated: T | Words:14,028 | Chapters:4/4 | Tags: Wedding Rings, Christmas, Christmas Fluff, Fluff, Marriage Proposal, Miscommunication, Idiots in Love, Sex(but not graphic), Canon Compliant, Headcanon1, 5x20 doesn't exist, Post-Finale, Human Castiel (Supernatural), Human Jack Kline
Welcome Home
Summary: Destiel Secret Santa Exchange 2020 | Dean and Cas take a special trip up to the mountains for their first Christmas together. Dean hopes they'll be many more to celebrate in the future together.
Details: Rated: T | Words: 3,717 | Chapters:1/1 | Tags: Alternate Universe - 1950s, Christmas Fluff, Christmas Presents, Dorks in Love