#20231011

[ch-gemn]

[55megami]

あとコメダ珈琲にも行きたいフルムーンバーガーとブラックサンダーのシロノワール食べたい。だがしかしみちが自炊頑張るマンなので外食する隙がない！愛〜！！

[55megami]

北海道土産のドーナツとベーグルにハマッて以来近場でドーナツを食べられるのは…と思いついてミスドを気にし始めたのだけどこれおいしそう〜！食べてみたい！夜勤明けの明日？？？マックのチョコパイも食べたい〜！！デブ〜！！！

[this-train-terminates-here]

Ok so I didn’t log yesterday but that’s ok I mean all I did yesterday was go on my phone too much and revise for a mandarin oral that I fucked up today. I saw my friend on the train, nice surprise. He was with friends so I didn’t want to interrupt so I kinda just stood there. They were like “oh ur friend is here” I’ve only met them like once before and they reacted that way that time as well. I feel like he talks about me?? Not sure. I went to Blackpink with him, was easier to go w eachother. Literally the only other Blink I know. I think he stans Newjeans and Le Ssefarim now too. Anyway one of my friends knows him as that guy who also likes kpop so ... . But the thing is right I met him on the train bc he was in the same class as this guy I knew. Big coincidence bc he's my brother's friends brother. Anyways he's an icon. He only stans girl groups tho which is a bit sad. Ngl probably how he thinks about me bc BP is pretty much to only gg I *stan*.

What else happened yesterday... Idk. Literally nothing. This is why I write these I remember literally nothing. Oh wait I saw a squirrel corpse yesterday that was fun. I also discussed animal testing w my class and I'm the only person who thinks that it's ok because it literally saves lives.... Anyway that's a bit controversial for social media so. I mean this is all a throwaway account really I mean this won't/shouldn't ever me linked to me. Hopefully. If anyone finds this I will actually kms. The train will mf terminate.

[imnot-kuknz]

나는 그래도 네게 슬픈 소식보단 기쁜 소식이 넘쳤으면 좋겠고, 네게 우울함이 익숙한 날보다 행복이 당연한 날의 연속이면 좋겠고, 서럽고 비극의 날들은 잠시 지나가고 늘 그렇듯 다시 웃었으면 한다. 물론 네가 어떤 모습으로 살아가든 그것마저 사랑하겠지만, 가끔 세상의 어떤 꽃은 만개한 환희로 피어나기로 했다.

너의 온 세상에 나에게 다정했으면 한다.

나는 많이 비참하고 자주 슬프고 조금 행복하고 실컷 즐겁고 모든 상황이 우습다 그럼에도 불구하고 내일도 사랑한다해야지 모레도 내일모레도

[boheelim]

최근의 나는 꽤나 많은 것이 안정화되었다.

그리고 예술은 놓아주었다.

하지만

그래도

언젠가는 다시 잡아야 한다.

_

지금은, 단지 다른 기록물로 나를 보여주는 것임을

할아버지도 내 마음을 알테야.