#21.19

[ozank]

“Sonsuz sandığın her şey nasıl tükendi..”

“Aklın kalmasın diye diye hayat kalmamış..”

[kalb-ivaveyla]

yalancı sevgilerinizde ve çıkar dostluklarınızdan o kadar bıktım ki

[just-some-thoughts-of-mine]

Well that’s me fucked again. Matt’s slept with a girl on his course who he finds ‘very attractive’ and she wants to be in a relationship with him but he told her he doesn’t want one. He doesn’t think he’ll have enough time for her and he said he’s rubbish at relationships anyway, but he still finds her 'very attractive’. So of course I have to help him work out what he wants, I can’t just ignore him, the girl giving relationship advice to her crush regarding another girl just because I want him to be happy. I’ve got me a lovely lose - lose situation; either he doesn’t want a relationship which means it’s a no, or he does want a relationship and will end up with this girl, so it’s a no. Brilliant. Just as I got over Colm I need to work this one out. Absolutely fan-fucking-tastic. The most annoying part is that I actually thought he might like me, he was so affectionate on Thursday, holding me by the waist, staying up until 4 chatting in the kitchen just the two of us, and his twinkly eyes, wow they were twinkly. And he messaged me the next day asking about going home, and yesterday too asking about my weekend, I thought that was him keeping me warm until we next saw each other (not that he needed to mind). But no turns out he wants this girl instead. Tell you what she’s a lucky one, and she’d better appreciate him if he goes for it.