#23.04.2021

[laviniaas]

[biragacgibitekvehur]

Sakın nefsine uyup bir can incitmeyesin Hüsn ü edebi koyup bir can incitmeyesin El ile dövseler de dil ile sövseler de Bin kez incitseler de bir can incitmeyesin

[frog-e-box]

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What to post what to post....ART STYLE EXPERIMENTATION....with my favourite idiots

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[nocte-litteris]

A tu lado mi corazón era tan frágil y fácil de destrozar, me tenías a tus pies y no podía hacer nada más que amarte con locura.

Reiji🌑

[dexamene]

the overwhelming feeling today is like “I don’t wanna do this” “I want to be in pyjamas” “I want to be at home”. I’m at the train station in Newcastle, the sun is bearing down and I can feel it heating my forehead and cheeks. the sun is nice but too much, like a lot of things.

I haven’t eaten today. I did not even give a good reason not to, just said I wasn’t hungry and felt a bit sick. Like I wanted it to be just mine. I want to be alone in my head and hurting. I’m so happy to be on the train for the next two hours so I don’t have to talk to anyone. I am getting kind of hangry anyway. I didn’t eat enough yesterday to compensate for today. Who cares who cares who cares

I’m not punishing me. We are getting along. This is just the only thing I can control and achieve at the moment.

When you’re in sick brain, you lie so you can stay in sick brain. You could say “That was so off of me, I wanted to stop eating, I know why that happened” but if you don’t acknowledge it, you can lie to everyone and maybe yourself. Then you don’t have to go back to a brain that is reasonable and prioritises your welfare. I don’t want to be there anyway.

I didn’t tell my best friend about it because she’d tell me to stop and what if she said something reasonable and then I stopped? I can’t risk it

I want to be unwell. It gives me distance from everyone.