26th of August, 2019.
I don’t know how to start.
Well, i’ve been in berlin for over 5 weeks now, we’ve done a lot of amazing stuff. Since i came here, i was planning on writing everything but i just lost track of time. For the last to weeks, i’ve been trying to improve myself; next weeks focus will be on time-management and being more mindful throughout the week.
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10 days ago, i started going to work with bike! First couple of days, it was super hard, i was scared all the time, cars were going too close and i was mostly biking on roads without special bike roads. Around my 3rd or 4th days, i started gaining confidence. I found a perfect route for my way back, i’ve been loving so far. I took these pictures this week, on my way home.
On my first day using Karl-Marx-Allee to go home, i smelled these amazing flowers. For two- three days i just thought ‘omg those smell amazing’. But then i decided to be more mindful about it; now throughout my ride from work to home, i enjoy everything around me. And when i come to the traffic lights before this park, i prepare myself for the amazing smell! Even if i ride slowly, it takes around 2-3 seconds but still, its good enough to make my day!
and these are the traffic lights that i see before that park, its the cutest thing ever! there is heart for red, star for yellow and water drop for green <3
23rd of August 2019, 19:11. Karl-Marx Allee.
On this day, i decided to stop and take a picture of the flowers to share them with people i love. Then when i stopped, i looked back for a second, saw this view. Plane was the perfect coincidence.
I saw this shop a few days back, it has the cutest shop window. In the original picture, my reflection was visible, but i have no idea where that went after editing.
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And this evening, i was coming back from Mauerpark, i had a moment of relief.
I mean, we always see people taking long walks or going on world tours to cope with the problems they have -- I was always skeptical about this; how? what is it about taking a journey that it heals people?
But this evening, i got it. I had that moment. And it was just three sentences.
He didn’t know any better. He is probably trying his best. It’s not entirely his fault. And in that moment, i had to slow down and pull over. Because i felt so light that i couldn’t pedal anymore. And in that exact moment, i made piece with it.
Even if i can’t do anything about other things - i can change myself, i can change my attitude, it’s in my hands, i can do it and i’ll do it. I don’t even remember how i got there, i don’t know what remind me of him/them that i started thinking about this but i am glad that it happened. * I am not angry anymore.
photos are from 23rd of August, writing is from 26th of August.
2019, Berlin.