What unhappiness can do
In 2023 and at the beginning of the 2024 I reached a level of unhappiness and worthless I had never experience before.
Most of it because I wanted to have my first job experience in Europe and I couldn't reach in the period of time I wanted, and when I finally got it, I lost it after 3 months of work.
This made me realize how important for a human begin is to be self employed, to avoid situations that makes you think you're incapable of achieving daily goals.
I see myself has a extreme smart, intelligent, persistent and I can't put myself down just because someone decided to fired me. I can't give others this kind of power.
The fact I had to put myself together, by myself with no external help, made me realize how much I want to be successful and win in life. Have my own business, a company to rule and manage.
When people work for others they get fired all the time, so that made me thing. Am I gonna fall apart every time I get a no? every day I don't feel like I'm achieving goals and being meaningful, and mindful?
School gave me the reason to wake up every day, gave me tasks and skills to develop. If I don't learn how to do it for myself everyday, mindfully, I will always feel there's no point in live when someone or a event stop me from doing what I was mean to.