Oct 27, 2016
Day 2
I only cried twice today, but the weather matched my mood: cold, dark, and rainy.
I haven’t seen you around campus so I suppose that’s good. But God I miss you. I miss sleeping next to you. I miss hearing your voice and your laugh. I miss your advice. I miss you holding me at 2am when I’m crying. I miss you telling me you love me.
Did you stop? Did you stop loving me? Because I don’t know how you walk away from someone you love like you did to me. If I ever did to you what you did to me...you would never forgive me. It would be unforgivable. And part of me hopes and knows that in a month’s time you’ll be back, apologizing and asking to love me again.
I just hope I’m at the place where I can say no.