#3.16.2020

[you-are-my-neverland]

andrew minyard ↠ the monster

“ you are a pipe dream, ” andrew said. “ go inside and leave me alone. ”

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[eenchantresss]

Introvert quarantine day 1: Food tastes better. My art looks better than usual. My skin is clear. Books and wine.

[amanomama]

i like watching how different all the tiny creatures in that tank move. theres some harmless flatworms and a lot of copepods too... and the zoes have joined the ranks but they move so differently

[amanomama]

oh wow i can actually see her releasing them slowly. shes still so big but i think she just started. shes scratching at her tail with her hind legs and knocking the eggs loose a bit. its interesting to watch...shes doing this while grazing too. its cool to see how coordinated they are with their bodies and limbs

[amanomama]

hoping that the big mama releases her zoes soon so that the transition to salt wont be too late

[awalkinspace]

its nice that you keep on asking abt seeing me again

makes me smile and shitt

[amanomama]

the first babies are here for real this time!

[honey-and-sting]

Miserere Mei, Deus

(Forgive My Unbelief)

I. Is there an end to suffering? I lean into the hurt & keep falling, just a cripple Jesus forgot & all that. It’s awfully hard to pick up my mat at this point, even harder to believe I could be saved or that there could be anything good in all of this.

II. Stop telling me to expect a miracle. I’ve begged for miracles before & I’m still here waiting for something to change.

III. I’ve heard all about your “messiah” but the way I see it either he is not who you say he s or he hates me specifically.  How many prayers have I cried out for mercy? And still nothing.

IV. I’m not willing to suffer in the name to a god who refuses to speak to me. It’s easier to believe no one is listening than it is to wonder why I don’t deserve to be saved.

V. Miserere mei, Deus. We all just want to be saved.