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So I got my first bit of gay hate over the weekend, it truely wasnt that bad. A girl found out and said I was 'fucking creepy'. Not that bad I know, im not throwing a tantrum I swear.

Its so strange because when I first started coming out to people I waited for a negitave reaction, from everybody. I would get so worked up about the thought of people hating me that I would feel sick to my stomach everytime I told someone. 

This girl is not really a friend, but we have always been friendly. I had gotten so used to everyone just accepting me right from the begining that when she reacted that way I litterally had to do a double take.

Turns out apparently she thought we were joking, although I havent seen her since. I was talking to one of my closest friends today and she said to me, "Fred, I hate to say this but you are going to get hate, people are going to think your weird and treat you like shit." and it hit me that she was right. I had always thought my coming out story doesnt have to be like others but it turns out that mine is pretty much the same as everyone elses, because the truth is that people are assholes, everywhere.

[365daysoffred-blog]

This week has been some crazy shit! Basicly, im writing this entry so that i dont have to finish my 200 word legal assessment that is due tomorrow..that i have barly started..oops!

Basically I am completly on the edge of dropping out of school, its rediculously hard to motivate yourself to stay in school when you hate it so much and have no idea if you will even need your final years of schooling to get into employment. Right now im basicly just weighing up my options of what is the best thing to do but i think im my heart I know, if school continues to make me hate myself and my life so much-why bother. I could work in a shitty job for three years, make some money and then do to university on a seniour entry anyway.

On top of that, I have somehow managed to get myself into some weird love triangle, don't ask how..its strange.

Anyway, I now have like less that 12hrs to finsh this assignment and get some sleep. Im fucked I know but hey, ill get there. Thanks guys, x 

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#3 - Funniest thing that happened this week:

ummmmmm........ummmmmmmm.......ummmmmmm......,  

I decided I was sick of being a total pushover and people pleaser so i screamed my lungs out at the young, burger flipping boys from my work. 

It was great, now they think im a crazy bitch..meh