Day 1 - 1st December 2015
For the first day of December I have planned to start my 3 month challenge to get my life in order. Especially this last week, I have been feeling horrid. I have not managed to get anything done, felt lazy and have been putting things off to times that I never work. I don’t want to live like this anymore, as I have done for so long.
I feel like I have so much potential to do well and achieve something, but I don’t give myself a chance. It’s like I sabotage my own chances at success by putting things off and procrastinating. I then end up rushing to complete whatever project I am working on and while it may turn out okay sometimes, I know deep down that I could have done better. I have big dreams and I feel that if I can work on these small day to day things, it will hopefully lead me to something better in my wider life.
I also just want to be ready for life everyday. I want to stop feeling like I need to prepare for the future - I need to look better, I need to study more, I need to stop wasting time. I just want to be...to be ready everyday.
Today wasn’t the best start. I did not go to university and spent the day at home lazing around and refreshing a random set of websites. I also had a headache.
I’ve slightly redeemed myself for the last half of the day. I showered, prayed, did some reading and have now written up my goals for this 3 month challenge. I’m feeling optimistic and I’m hoping that this new method of posting online will help to keep me motivated to follow through. I am not looking for followers though, this is purely for me. If however, someone does chance upon this, it may be helpful to spur me on to avoid public failure.
It’s also a little side project, something else that I can work on and a great way to also practice my writing skills. I used to keep a diary when I was younger, but this is something that I have not done for a while. I’m planning to use this space to document my attempt at this challenge and what I get up to, with writing and some images. I will also post anything else that I may be interested in, come across and happen to like during this time like articles, quotes and photos. I’m also going to try to use this as an inspiration area to make changes within myself, remind me of what I’m trying to do and help keep me motivated.
