#4.15.21

[heademptyquotes]

Springtrap after being set on fire again: Milly Rock the flames away.

[whatever-dude]

From the flyers nation twitter

(Fully did not blink the entire time because I was so concerned)

[clubhockey]

4.15.21

[edo-vivendum]

My sibling is going to a residential program. My mom let me know via text that she's spent all day on the phone figuring it out for him. Additionally she found the place through recommendations from her friends that work in psych.

I know she's learned from her mistakes with me, but it still fucking hurts to see my mom caring for my brother in all the ways she couldn't do for me. Rubbing salt in the neglect if you will.

Like goddam do you know who called res programs for me? Me. You know who researched them? Me. You know who had to convince my mom I needed it? Me. Ffs.

Idk it hurts.

It brings up self destructive urges. Like the 12 year old me just wants to scream out for attention by destroying herself. I'm an adult now, and I don't need to do that. And the urge is little more than a thought. But it's there. And I fucking hate this.

I love my brother and want the best for him.... But this still hurts.

[whatever-dude]

I have come to the conclusion that Philadelphia is the worst possible place for Nolan. He is cursed there. Nolan honey we hope you're okay (& we hope you get out of philly soon) ((he deserves literally so much more))

[a-little-bit-of-pretty]

you are not a burden, I carry your heavy heart willingly, holding it next to mine, with love, with love

[tundeslove]

1111 111 222 444 555

[purenumbers]

4/15/21

4 + 1 = 5 * (2 - 1)

Also:

√(4 + 1 + 5) = 2 + 1

Also:

√4 = (1 + 5) / (2 + 1)