#5.30.24

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From 'Step Up Revolution' to '9-1-1': How competition fuels actor Ryan Guzman

Ryan Guzman pursued a career in mixed martial arts because of Bruce Lee. Little did he know he would follow his hero in pursuing an acting c

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[ener-chi]

Joys of the Day:

-My partner taking care of me: buying medicine/food at the store, cooking and cleaning, keeping me company, doing the chores I can't keep up on 🥰

I tested postive for covid today lol. Like I've never seen the positive bar turn red so fast before. So definitely have it, rip

Definitely feeling pretty garbage today. BUT I'm learning a lot about myself in the process. There are lots of lessons going on rn haha

-Our AC finally got installed in our apartment! Just in time for a hot day tmrw haha

-Honey ❤️ I've been drinking hot water with honey. I also use it as a general sweetener for anything and everything, because Intry and stay away from sugar. Idk what I would do without it

-I came out to virtually everyone in my life today, and everyone has been super accepting, I'm very grateful ❤️

-I have been struggling with really bad anxiety for the past year and a half, twoish years. Anywho I'm not entirely sure yet but I think it might actually have been dysphoria lol

-Skadi, and her strength and firm-yet-loving hand

-Partner meant to get me some saline spray but instead got some decongestant spray. It wasn't what I wanted, but it is what I needed. Goddamn that stuff works, super grateful for that

I feel like I'm coming more into myself, and feeling more myself, than I ever have, ever. And I'm really excited and really grateful for that.

That's all for now! Hope everyone has a good night!

Blessings!

[thatfriendlyanon]

it's been raining for a week now. i've been alternating between feeling everything and feeling nothing at all. my heart has weighed me down like the rocks in my limbs and the migraines keep edging around my temples and i have had at least three anxiety attacks in the past week, but tonight i am at peace. the world outside is cold and wet but i eat dark chocolate digestives and drink tea from a mug that clinks gently against the tile of my windowsill when i set it down beside my flower vases and stack of prayers.

when i try to tell a friend about the landscape of my emotions, i describe pools of water with no lakebed in view, deeper than i could imagine. she tells me to take a walk down to the stepping stones and when i do i see that the river, swollen with all of may's rain, has flooded over them. i talk to Jesus at the riverbank until i fall asleep in the sun.

that was three days ago. two days ago i dragged myself out of a depressive spiral and one day ago i prayed with my sisters for two hours until the burdens rolled off my back and it was easier to breathe. today i drink tea and i warm myself under a blanket the color and texture of moss and i read the entire book of hebrews in one sitting and i marvel at the most compassionate wounded healer i've been gifted to know.

i call a friend when the temptations come and i sit on the phone outside until my jeans and trainers are both soaked through. i let myself leave dinner early when i need to rest and i let myself laugh on the bedroom floor of my old flatmate's room and i let myself keep wading through all the in betweens.

life is easy and life is hard and life is unknown, and i am alive in the middle of it all. i am sitting at the top of the stairs that lead down into the basement in my chest, and i am keeping the door behind me open so the little girl down there might catch glimpses of my living room's light. i still don't trust her and she doesn't trust me, but there are handknit blankets thrown over the couches upstairs that i hope one day she can wrap herself in.

it has been a good day. i don't know what tomorrow will be, but it can worry about itself. for now, the lilies of the field and birds of the air have been passing me love notes from my dearest Friend, and the rain on the window is as soft and comforting as His voice.

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5/30/24

5 + 3 + 0 = 2 * 4

Also:

5 - 3 + 0 = 2 = √4

Also:

5 = 3! - 0! * (2 / √4)

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