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I see so much that remind me of you, things i wish you were seeing too. Like that giant hershey's chocolate syrup i saw at a store today, i remember that night at my old place you got out of bed, walked to the fridge and took the hershey's syrup, went back to bed and put some in your mouth before kissing me. We got really dirty that night. Insert smile. We passed by this tunnel on the way back to the hotel and it was lit with so many twinkling lights. I remember us in a cab too, and you were staring out into this park with christmas lights and you were in awe. You told me how much you loved it as a child, you're not a little boy anymore but you still love things a kid would. I found that endearing. I ordered in a restaurant a dish called Chicken and Biscuits. I remember that huge breaded chicken you ordered for me in this really nice place. I ask you to order for me whenever we're out, after all being a culinary arts student you knew which dishes were the best. We even made reservations beforehand and we almost didn't go because of the storm but luckily it subsided and we had an amazing date. I saw a Dusit Thani hotel branch over here and i remembered you because that's where you had your on the job training. I remember you coming home to me after a long day and i'd jokingly say you smelled liked a kitchen, it was true though. And you knew it. Insert laugh. I heard "two is better than one" playing in the mall, the lyrics sang "i remember what you wore on the first day you came into my life" and i do. You wore your chef uniform from when you were still in school and wow, that's been what? Almost three years. Insert sad face. All this in one day. I get flashes of this everyday since we broke up. I make it seem like it doesn't bother me, after all this is for the best, but i wish i could tell you, you know? I wish i could send you a picture of that giant hershey's syrup. I know we'd have a good laugh. I'm starting not to miss you as my boyfriend, but i do miss you being my best friend. I do miss you. I wish i could just talk to you, but when i greeted you a happy new year you were just so nonchalant, rude almost and i am deeply saddened by the way you are to me now. I wonder if you think of me as much as i think of you in one day. I wish i told you how much i really do think of you, even when we were together so i'm sure you know that you are on my mind. I hope that one day you find it in your heart to truly forgive me, because i would hate for us to just go down the drain completely. I mean, we once shared our hopes and dreams and now we're back to being strangers. I know tomorrow i will see something again that will remind me of you, but everyday it will be more and more insignificant to the point that even if i saw something or did something we both liked in the past i wouldn't think of you...but that's not what i want. I love you, still and believe me when i say i always will because that by far is something i say that i do stand by to.