#57312

[leomacgivena]

「実家に帰るたびに年々リビングのテレビの音量が上がってる」というのは確かに両親の「老い」を感じるんだよな。

Xユーザーの野瀬大樹さん

[ramyeongif]

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[tinemaria57312]

and there are so many people in this world, so many idividuals trying to blend in and stand out at the same time, knowing eactly what they want at the end of their time but no idea how to get there, or those who are stuck not knowing the end, having no idea what they want or if they even want anything.

perhaps they want everything, anything they can reach and touch, anything they can feel between their fingers, whether it be rough or smooth, worth a thousand lifetimes or not a single forgotten one, just searching for something. something to say "this is mine and you can't have it." something to call their own so that when the walls inevitably crush down upon them and they are left grappling for something to hold they will have this one thing to grab onto with a firm grasp

one thing left under all the ruin the dust the debris

and through the dark times when all they have left is that one thing it is enough, and when they slowly claw their way to the surface and see the sun poking through, a tiny fragment of light to guide the way through otherwise utter darkness, that which they grip tight begins to show it's form. that which they have been holding onto to keep them safe, to hold onto the inch of sanity they have left after being stuck in darkness, takes on a shape.

and when they are finally standing upright adn have brushed the last of the debris away they notice that what they have been gripping this hold time has been a hand, attached ata wrist and an arm, a shoulder and neck, a face and body. and realization that perhaps you were not the one gripping it tight and claiming it as yours but that the hand was doing the same to you, guiding and following you at the same time, through the maze of darkness we can not travel alone.

[tinemaria57312]

quietly

slowly

creeping into the shadows

filling every crevice

every empty part of you

making you finally feel something

anything, as long as you felt it

doesn't matter that all you feel is drowning

because as you're gasping for that breath

as you feel your lungs begin to betray you

you take that final moment

that last escaping puff of air

the final breath and moment

and you use it to laugh

because you feel the pain

you finally felt it

felt something

and that was more than enough

that was everything you had been craving

everything you had been striving for

and though it was excruciating

it

was

beautiful

[tinemaria57312]

The Black (K)night

The black (k)night will conquer And death will have it’s day Unleashing impenetrable darkness You are nothing but it’s prey.

And though you turn away from it Death will be your end                (it always is) And when you can no longer fight To it’s will you shall bend.

You struggle and you fight But the darkness soon consumes you And when you finally surrender           (you will) There is nothing left for you to do.

[tinemaria57312]

Crystal

and i see the way you're hurting though you're holding it inside and though your mask is solid you couldn't hide your eyes

I wish that you would let me in and see you're not alone but you've your walls so strong that i can't break through the stone

and even though you see me you don't realize i'm there pain has blurred your vision but I see you crystal clear.

[tinemaria57312]

and you don't know the affect you have or the way that your eyes shine when the world is crashing down on you but i can see that you're still trying

they keep on passing you by as though you are not there you brush off all their wrongs but wonder why no one cares

maybe they know who you really are and that's why they push you aside they see all the reasons you hate yourself because there are too many flaws to hide.

[tinemaria57312]

and you hold it inside don't let them see what you've got to hide because though it's tearing you apart you know it will break them inside

they did nothing to deserve your pain and you have everything to lose and nothing to gain so you put on a smile and let out a laugh and hope they don't see past you faking sane

because you've done so little and them so much and though you don't deserve it, you reach out to touch you hold on tight and pray they keep you afloat but one day they will tire of being your crutch.