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I feel fine now but he's insisting I go to the hospital or else he'll have a breakdown worrying about me. I am going to the psych hospital. Considering I feel fine, I shouldn't be gone long : /

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I just remembered that @elegyofthemoon tagged me months ago (💀) to share the last sentence I wrote of my WIP.

Original fiction:

They stopped only a few feet away from the fissure, across which [L.A.] remained quieter and more frozen than the groaning ice.

Fan fiction:

To grow up with a family was to know the entirety of one's own flesh as a fragment of a body.

Poem:

The candle drips liquid time / running down the spine of Sleep

If you'd like to do it too, please make your own post instead of rbing and tag me so I can see! You don't have to tag others if you don't want to.

I'm nosy let me have a peek @societyofsaintignacio @fae-koon @wltcher @longagoitwastuesday @stalkhome-sindrone @thethingything and I'm tagging you to do it again since it's been a while @elegyofthemoon

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This may sound like no big deal but I literally want to fly into a rage and scream at the women leaving reviews for this BCP saying that it had horrible side effects "but hey it made my cup size bigger : )"

I can't relate to other women I can't relate to other women I could never ever ever. From a young age I never understood any of you.

Why don't you fight this. If you can't, why don't you at least wish you could. Why don't you care about what our culture has done to you. I hate you. I despise you. Oh at least your boobs are bigger so that makes suffering worth it? What have men and other women done to you and why don't you see anything wrong with it? That your boobs and perfect wings and shapely legs are more important, that being an ocular consumable is more important to you than living comfortably?

I understand succumbing to peer pressure. I understand shame and anxiety pushing you into this. What I don't understand is being proud of it or shameless about your shame. That's what I don't understand. I'm ashamed of you. I hate you. Shut the fuck up.

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One time my grandparents suggested I pursue singing 'to glorify God' so I said that I prefer writing. So my grandfather said "Well what if God wants you to sing instead" and I replied "Then he wouldn't have made me prefer writing" and they actually shut up after that 😂 Unexpected for them to concede tbh

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Last night he was sleeping pressed against me and he whimpered in his sleep when I pulled away to get up 😭

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After I'd been calmed down for a while, my bf was like. Treat yourself to a margarita! He made me a lemon kind. And now I've finally found an alcoholic drink I like. But boy is that burning in the chest necessary? I got through half the glass and was like yeah okay I've had enough lol.

On an empty stomach too 🤦🏼‍♀️ I felt so sick after

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Going hoooome : ) As expected, I did not meet the criteria for admission and they gave me a safety plan instead. I just went bc my boyfriend could not be consoled unless I got assessed. Now I've been assessed and he seems to be reassured.

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Tbh the reason I forgot about doing that game (below) is that my sentence was really boring at the time so I was like what's the point. Now I hit a three for three with this one because none of them are "She fell asleep" or whatever lol.