#6+2

[newtness532]

Are we gonna talk about how pretty Darren is with his natural hair?

[satchels-and-socks]

They can't just take you away

This episode killed me I am not ok if you need me I'll be crying in the corner.

No one warned me how much season six episode two hurt so much

I don't feel like watching cm right now

[ssfghfrrggf]

Season 6 Episode 2 "Friendly Fire"

[perseid-haunt]

3, 8, 11, 14

3/💖 - what's your favourite thing about being queer?

I'm gonna be real with you. I live in a conservative xtian area. I just find it extremely alienating and lonely and uncomfortable and frustrating. There are things I like about being queer but they aren't inherent to it. So idk.

I don't feel proud or empowered. I overhear The Gays Are Destroying This Country on the reg in walmart. I have to lie about my sexuality when I visit the doctor. Sorry for pride month I guess.

8/🌠 - when did you first figure out you were queer? do you still use the same labels you did back then?

I knew something was "wrong" with me about age 14 when I felt like a masculine girl and wanted to dress a masculine way and was greatly admonished for it. This is about the same age I became scared of my kinky sexual fantasies and too confused about my attraction to women (and men) to even interpret it as attraction.

I was a scared and uninformed chr.istian child. I don't use the same labels.

14/✨ - tell me something you really like about yourself

I'm feeling rough tonight X_X I don't like myself rn, I don't want to be around

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2, 11, 12

2/💐 - how would you describe your gender identity?

I'm a cis woman who feels most aligned with her gender identity when presenting in a masculine way. And while I don't see myself as a guy, I enjoy using masculine terms for myself sometimes. I do enjoy looking feminine to a certain degree (especially in warmer months) but it doesn't feel as much like me. Highly feminine looks and certain feminine accessories and trends make me feel legitimately dysphoric and awful.

11/👗 - tell me about an outfit that makes you feel really good about yourself, or alternatively, an outfit you'd love to wear

I don't feel like posting the outfits again but I have some in my photo tag. The ones that make me feel best about myself are for cold weather.

12/☀️ - what's a little thing that's really gender affirming for you?

I've found that the easiest way to turn down the femininity lever of any outfit is my fingerless gloves or my chunky wallet chain. Combining them is twice as helpful. Top it off with the boots.

The chunkiness of the chain is important. Fuck off with that "chain for women : )" dainty shit. This IS a chain for women. My bf commented on how it's twice the weight and thickness of his. I was proud lol.

Also, simply not wearing makeup!! You can see women making all kinds of fashion choices all the time but one thing you don't see very often is them making these choices while also not wearing makeup. Sure they might not for "laundry day" but I mean specifically when wearing an outfit they like.

Even in my most feminine outfits, the fact I don't wear makeup sets me apart. That alone makes me look very different. It can make me feel very awkward among other women, like I am being a woman wrong. But when I am not around other women, it makes me feel affirmed in my identity. It makes me feel like me.

[perseid-haunt]

Oh yeah, I had an actual PTSD breakdown while he was here this weekend. Came completely out of the blue. A scene in a movie upset and angered me to a highly disproportionate degree. I literally felt like I was going to explode and I started seething, breathing through my teeth and clenching my jaw and shaking. About 10 mins pass and I am bawling my eyes out, going through a flashback and he has no idea what's going on.

When the outburst wrapped itself up, I was vague and just said I'm a CSA victim and the movie set me off and that's it. I don't want to have to explain more to him (or anyone) bc I don't like to talk about it. But I think I'll inevitably have to.

[perseid-haunt]

for the keyword game: "grave"

Oh I actually just shared something with that keyword. But here's another very recent one