I am constantly torn between these two pieces of me that I want so badly and I am constantly torn between these two lives that I know I could achieve individually. But unfortunately I can’t have the best of both worlds and I don’t know which path is going to be the one that I will follow, or which is the one that I want more. I have grown accustomed and fallen in love with my small town farm girl life, but I also want to go new places, explore big cities, experience things that I have never the opportunity to experience. I want a life that is more than rural Erie, Colorado but I am afraid that the second I move away, I will want to return to my comfort. Or if I stay here or in a small town that I will constantly regret not taking a chance on possibly having a different life. Every decision I make now will make an impact on my future which is absolutely terrifying.