May 13, 2019
constant. effing. tug of war with my delayed circadian rhythm to get a decent few hours of sleep.
not a “good night’s sleep,” cause that’s not a thing for me - if I sleep during the night hours:
it is very hard to actually sleep. well. period. cause the night is when my muse is most awake
that’s if I get to sleep at all instead of laying in bed trying to be good and not distract myself with asmr vids or mindless mobile games cause I have adhd but my meds have lessened by then
so if I do end up sleeping at night, I will wake up almost just as tired as when I went to sleep, no matter how many hours I got.
#634am#I was tired ALL FREAKING DAY#even a good portion of the night#it was a weird day for me#and now RIGHT NOW I am physically sitting up straighter and more focused#LITERALLY. MORE. AWAKE. THAN I WAS 15 MINUTES AGO.#and I need to start trying to head to bed#cause my alarm is for 4pm and that was going actually great#right up until I got sick and slept for 2 days and took 3 more to recoup#I don't have enough spoons for this#spoonie#spoon theory#adhd#depression/anxiety#pcos#executive dysfunction? very likely indeed#infj/p
