lust
I have always lusted over beauty
beauty in a photo
beauty in words
beauty in people, especially
the beauty I found in women often confused me
was I supposed to be quite so enthralled by the blush dusted over freckled cheeks
that bunched beneath crinkled eyes when she smiled?
that heavenly smile to match that beautiful laugh!
was I supposed to press my own lips together
when watching her apply lipgloss?
wondering how those lips would taste under mine
sure, beauty can be found in all people
boys included
but I’ve just always been drawn to girls
in all their cherry pink softness
with their smooth skin and dark eyelashes
catching glitter from their eyeshadow
surrounded by the damp morning dew of grass and daisy-flowers
that’s how I’d like to find my love
at least,
that’s the love I wish for














