#9-17-16

[pluviophilicmisanthrope-blog]

I love relationships like,,,when they're sleepy and kind of find their way over to you to cuddle,,that's what I want. why don't I have that

[me-and-will-are-friends]

I feel like I might treat you too much like a kid or something You're my best best best friend but you're 2 1/2 years younger than I am. I have no issues with that really because I have a ton of really good friends that are much younger and older than I am but my mom thinks it's creepy and I know my friends are :// about it I see you as like an equal though like you're my bro Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if we were the same age, or you were 16 and I was 13 gosh that would be messed up so weird I yell at you and stuff at climbing to focus which is mostly because I do want to climb and also I want you to not get in trouble with Tim but if you were older I don't know if I'd do that Which messes with me like does that mean I don't respect you as much as I would an older will? Or is my perpetual discomfort with older kids a result of my unfortunate upbringing and anxiety and shit? Then again I don't have the same dynamic with my other friends that I have with you because you're will and you're genuine and dorky and you aren't ashamed about things you love and you make life fun I've only ever loved one other person as much as I love you but you're like the opposite of him. You're the anti-Sebastian. I guess I have a problem with idolizing the things I love? I totally do it with you and I did it with seb which led to me being so so uncomfortable around him but I'm totally comfortable when I'm with you Sebastian was and is afraid of the real world and that shed a similar light onto me but in a different way but you're much more vibrant and you're not afraid to feel and that's cool and it makes me feel ok But I wonder a lot if you're as comfortable- would you treat me differently if I were younger or something, or is there a barrier of respect or something You're rougher with Ben which could just be your dynamic Is it a healthy dynamic that we have? I think my moms getting to my head or something

[spacexguns]

I'm pissed off and I need rapper friends help me

[shutupkidsaregreat]

Well it’s officially Saturday, September 17, 2016, my due date. Its hard to believe that its really here. Not that Lincoln seems to care. I don’t think he’s coming out till he’s forced. I’m not any more dilated than I was a week and a half ago, and I don’t know, call it mommy-instincts but I just don’t think he’s coming on his own lol. Normally my doctor doesn’t let his patients go more than a week past due, so at 41 weeks he’ll induce, for obvious health reasons this is common no big deal or whatever. However I asked if we could push it two days, so I would be 41 weeks and 2 days, and Lincoln and his dad could share a birthday. He said at 41 weeks he’ll send me to the hospital and let them do a stress test and whatever else they want and as long everything is fine and there’s no risk he’s OK with inducing me on the 26th. Ive asked CK quite a few times if he’s OK with sharing his birthday, just to make sure, and he seems pretty excited about it. I guess now all there is to do is more waiting lol.