13 Going On 31..
I remember being 13 and deciding I wanted to start an e-zine. Back in the day when I had first juno email account (no one under the age of 30 probably has any idea what I am talking about) I used my free email address to start a magazine and emailed it weekly to thousands of subscribers that I had gathered. I don’t quite remember how I acquired so many people to officially subscribe to my e-zine, I just remember it kept growing each week and I loved doing it. I am not even 100% positive that any of my subscribers ever once opened and read it, but I continued anyway for almost a year, that is, until my obsession with the Hanson Brothers subsided a little (the topic of my e-zine) and I moved on to singing Karaoke on my front lawn for fun. At that age I had no worries about anything including 1.) Not having a clue what I was doing 2.) The fact that I had never done anything like that before or known anyone to do anything like that 3.) The fact that I had no permission or way of knowing if any of what I was doing was even legal or if I was doing it correctly 4.) Never wondering what others would think of me or if my e-zine was “good enough” 5.) Never trying to be better than everyone else, just being myself at all times.....you get the point. My 13 year old self did not have the same insecurities that my 31 year old self continues to entertain. I was having fun writing about something I loved. I was sharing my humor, and knowledge with other fans who might have been dreaming of starting their own e-zine magazine someday. Sometimes I think about that and how proud I am for myself for doing something so bold, and different. This is one of the many reason why I have decided to do this. I want to do this for me. I want to do this for my 13 year old self that would be disappointed if I didn't. Right now, my focus is to start writing again and to find my passion, and how to use it to help others to do the same. I feel that I have so much to offer the world, I am just trying to find a place to start. I am done waiting.