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Conscientious marvel coruscates in absinthian hues, dainty and inconsequential like a child’s intrusiveness. He is abstract in nature, sequestered by melancholic means and separate of genuine feeling —- accidentally isolating those who’ve cared most in ways that even he would blanch at given the chance. Inaccessible as his pure sensations are, he is not a counterfeit martyr in all he does. An averse flush settles over chiseled cheekbones ; the longing for trust and admiration rather than fool’s haphazard disgust at those who are unfamilar. “Just. Just let me rest,” he requests, surprisingly whimsical for a gruff survivor. “Don’t be anything bad, and let me rest.”

#type:#( * & starter )#940109 #( * & 940109 )#( * & AUTEM JUSTUS REGULA. )#honestly im kind of excited for this??#don't mind me tbh asfjdhksaf

@940109.

❝ ──── come here . your knuckles .. all bruised up . let me fix them up . and then i’ll make you some tea . i’ll put some lavender in it and you’ll sleep .. that sounds nice , doesn’t it ? ❞

#940109 #she wants to Mom him #i. * she says she is not real ( not in a real world )

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text memes! status: accepting!

( sms ➟ shin ♛ ) i didn’t mean it when i said i hated you. please come back home [ message not sent. ]( sms ➟ shin ♛ ) i need you [ message not sent. ]

#940109 #mms; shin #(* book: the fox and the hound *)

Dear Shin.

letters i’ll never send.status: accepting!

dear shin,

do you ever regret meeting me? did you ever think that the moment you told me you loved me and wanted me to be yours that i would ever cause you so much pain, so much joy all at the same time. the moment you took my hand in yours, showed signs that you cared, i knew that our lives would never be sane again.

i love you. i love you so much.

but i also can’t stop the feeling of hatred that fester and boils at the mention of your name. i hate how suffocating you are, how you stake your claim on me as if i’m yours and yours only. tell me, does it make you mad knowing that men lust after me, that they’re having their way with me in their head while i’m holding on to you? i love seeing how upset you get when i tell you that i’m not yours, only to kiss your lips and hold you into my arms telling you everything that you love to hear. you can be so greedy sometimes, it’s endearing at times, truly.

you’re the fire in my veins, the alcohol on the tip of my tongue as i drink to forget the horrid things that we do to one another. to me you’re a drug, i can’t help but need more of you even when knowing that i shouldn’t. i tell myself that i hate you, that they way we scream at each other and on the instances where we can no longer express our anger through words, but hits instead is unhealthy. yet i’m always ready to come back the moment you call for me and your tearful apologies touch my heart and i find myself forgiving you once more.

maybe i’m afraid of letting you go, of letting another have the attention that you give you to me. i am selfish. i need to be the only person that makes you lose your temper without a second thought, i need to be the only one that makes you question what the definition of love is. no one else can make you think such thoughts in so little time, now do they?

i’ve become addicted to the way you kiss my bruises, and the way you sigh whenever i kiss your neck and tell you that you’re mine only to have you say the same thing to me. i hate that i love you. i hate that when i’m alone my thoughts always turn to you and how my heart aches when you’re not around.

why do you do this to me.

yours truly,carmen.

#940109 #(* book: the fox and the hound *)#book; letters i'll never send #** i hope this was okay bby thank you for sending it in **

@940109.

❝ hm .... i gotta say . y’aint , ah looking good . y’oughta get, hm some sleep . ❞

#940109 #╏ ✧･ﾟ❝ i. ᶳᵃᵐᵉ ᵈᵉᵖʳᵉᶳᶳᶤᶰᵍ ᶳᵗʳᵉᵉᵗ ˡᶤᵍʰᵗᶳ !! ❞ ( main arc )#smooches u

“ be honest. ”

slender fingers gently glide over the purple bruise adorning her pale cheek, voice quiet as he asks what happens, fretting over the girl who preferred scraped knees from tripping on the sidewalk versus the scratches from a mom who didn’t love her ( as would any child ). she remains silent, lips pressed together to keep her secret forever, no matter how comfortable she felt with him - she would NEVER tell. fearing the unknown was what stopped her, not being able to tell how her future would look if she told on the woman who birthed her, if her sins would ever be forgiven.

“i accidentally hit myself in the face..” regret grips her heart, twists it in his cold hands as she LIES so blatantly. her lie is easily detected, and she blames it on her desperation - the urge to not hide anymore, to be saved from the hellish reality that she was cursed to live.

his detection causes the gentle stroking to turn into a insistent push, the prodding of his fingers loosing their delicate edge as he presses against the bruise hard. “be honest.” he speaks despite her whimper, watches her through narrowed eyes as she moves away bottom lip quivering, hands clasped together tightly. it hurts her to lie to the one that wiped her tears when she fell from climbing a tree way to high, to the boy with whom she shared her candy with.

her very best friend deserved to know.

“s-she hit me.” the tears roll down her cheeks slowly as she stammers, as she confesses to the sins of her mother. “but i deserved it!” however she burdens the sins as if she committed the deed herself. “it was my fault, okay? promise you won’t tell.” pleading, she reaches for shin’s hand, intertwining their fingers as she begs for him to keep her secret.

#940109 #(* book: the fox and the hound *)#mms; shin #( i hope this was okay! )