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I'm a Junior I'm Highschool, I can feel myself falling back into depression and having more panic attacks every single day. I am not doing good in school because of this and I fear that I won't graduate and I will probably end up falling back into old habits that aren't good. My family isn't supportive so I can't ask them for help and the counselor at school didn't help me last time. I really want to die and I'm so scared

Hey there anon, 

I can relate to your situation a lot, so let me tell you this. Take some deep breaths, and story time. TRIGGER WARNING:

I've been depressed since my freshman year, and have failed classes because of my lack of motivation and home situation (my mom is an abusive alcoholic). Last year, my junior year, I was in an abusive relationship and my best friend was raped. After all this, I started self harming to cope. That made my senior year (this year) really hard on me. Then I started seeing a therapist and psychiatrist and my meds constantly kept my mood changing. Because of this, I've missed A LOT of school, the administration hates me, and it's to the point where I'm losing credit in classes and in danger of not graduating. 

Now that you know a little bit about me, let's deal with your issue. 

When you feel yourself slipping back into your depression, it's really hard to stop yourself sometimes from falling back into old habits. Here are some things that I have found helpful for me during my situation. 

-Keep a book or journal with helpful coping skills for when your anxiety gets really bad. My therapist once told me that "if you need to have a panic attack, that's okay, whatever it takes to get through the day". Which honestly, wasn't helpful for me at the time. It can be hard to tell your teacher what is going on, but if you feel an attack coming on and you need to step out, just raise your hand and ask to use the bathroom, say you're not feeling well, or if you feel like being honest will help, say you're having a panic attack and need to go out in the hall to calm down. 

-IF you're not doing good in school cause of grades, I will tell you this. It's okay to fail a class, it won't ruin your entire life. As someone who has failed math freshman year, and Latin sophomore year, it isn't the the worst thing to happen. Sure, summer school sucks, but it's better than stressing yourself out to meet a deadline. 

-However, lack of motivation can be really tricky when it comes to finishing homework on time or studying for tests. Try studying with friends, or finding an environment to study in. If you have projects, choose a topic that interests you that way you will have motivation to get it done. Also, if you have trouble focusing at home, try to get your homework done at school, that's always helped me. Also, try to stay engaged during classes as much as you can to try to be caught up. 

-TAlk to your teachers, let them know you're having some personal issues (you don't have to give details), ask them how you can raise your grade in their class. Trust me, they will see you're making an effort and help you out. 

Finally, if you don't have anyone at home to support you, find some friends, form a support system. Even if they are online, you know we are always here for you! Forming a support system is key to getting through tough situations like this. And companionship will do you good to getting out of your slump. 

Also, the counselor thing sucks, I know how it is. Often times counselors are hit and miss. IF your school has any other counselors, try seeing them. Some schools have hired therapists on staff, mine does, ask around about that or if there are any sort of social groups about teens dealing with problems. 

Furthermore, I know this has been long, and thanks so much for baring with me. You're going to make it through this. You will graduate, junior year doesn't determine what happens senior year. Just take it day by day, try not to think too far ahead, it will stress you out. 

You got this, hope this helped. If you want to continue to talk, start your message with '9687'

Keep on doing your best!

-Katie

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