#9:10pm

[hyuuukais]

goodnight <3<3<3<3<3<3

[guymaito]

totally didn’t forget to post this

for @atlaocweek

[40-bee-07-daily-blog]

Burger + chips for dinner

[the-things-i-wish-i-could-say]

I feel like I’m being ousted from my group. They hang out without me, and then talk about how much fun they’re having. Am I turning into my one friend who brings down the mood? Have I become the person they all unspeakingly want to avoid and wish would just fuck off? I don’t know if it’s just the fact that I’ve been through this enough times to know when they hang out without you and then talk about how much fun it was, then the other shoe is slowly dropping. I might just be paranoid and anxious but I really thought I was fun to be around. I try so hard to be a smiley, funny person so people will like me and want to be around me. Even when that’s the complete opposite of how I’m feeling I still put on that mask. And maybe it’s a defence mechanism, and yeah it’s unhealthy but I’m scared, I’m scared that if I don’t fit into the box they’ve put me in inside their heads they won’t wanna be around me anymore. And I’m scared that that’s already starting.

For people who know how much I fucking hate being left out, y’all are doing a real good job of making me feel like a fucking stranger.

[dirtyspaceshiprambligs]

I am a horrible person. 

“There are no ghosts, Watson, save for the ones we create for ourselves” - Sherlock.

[ultrahopelessinsomniac29]

I need football for my mental health! It keeps me going no matter how bad things are. Like rn even though i am hurting bc of that bullshit, i feel better after practice.

[drowsy-me-posts]

I miss him like crazy, I feel so helpless