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Pretending to not be the persecutor in front of people who hate me GET ME OUT OF HEREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

#_txt_#𐕣 #persecutor #anger holder #inhales. exhales. whatever it’s fine it’s fine host is comforting me it’s fine #they hate ‘me’ as in ME. not just the body. they don’t know I exist but they recognize my behavior enough to hate it #which doesn’t bother me I’m just trying not to make things worse ykyk #they won’t stop talking and they’re playing loud music augghhhh SCREAMS

Does anyone know of good communities on Tumblr or Discord for plurality that are 100% anti sy.smed, preferably pro endo as well. I’m not endo or anything I just don’t like any form of gatekeeping. Sy.smeds have srsly given me a lot of self doubt and have scared me away from the plural community as a whole. But I’m having a really rough time trying to figure out sys stuff by myself and I think I would benefit from some support. And I’m also trying to learn to be more social in general

#_txt_#plural #plurality #plural system #a little scared to post this ngl #sy-smeds if you find this pls dont try to debate me. respectfully i don’t want to be around any of you ever again

I need to unlearn my internalized ADHD ableism. Sadly, I faced a lot of it externally, so it stuck with me. I need to learn it’s ok to use my limited energy on things I enjoy doing (when I can ofc, work + responsibilities come first for me). I need to learn that I’m not lazy for having low energy, or for being slower than others. I need to learn that giving 100% DOES mean I’m working hard, regardless of what my 100% is compared to my peers. I need to learn that my failures aren’t because I didn’t try hard enough, or that I didn’t put in enough effort. I need to learn so many things. I need to unlearn many others as well. It’s going to be hard, but I want to stop hating myself. I didn’t choose to have ADHD, or to feel chronically burnt-out for years, but I can choose to still value myself. Somehow. I don’t know how I’ll get there, but I want to work towards it. I will work towards it.

#_txt_#adhd #tw ableism #tw internalized ableism #I love disabled people. I truly do. I hold so much respect for all of you #I need to learn to have that same love for myself. to stop seeing myself as the sole exception to the things I feel abt disabled ppl #if I can see everyone else as valuable and meaningful regardless of their capabilities. then I should feel the same towards myself too #regardless of what neurotypicals think. I need to get their hate out of my heart. I need to in order to be happy

I’m jealous of Covid conscious people who don’t feel bothered by the stares and rude comments. I only really mask at my job and the customers are so mean about it, I don’t know why they care what I choose to wear. I have to mask, I catch sickness far more often than the average person, it’s not like I just feel like it. It’s not like I enjoy having people take pictures of me and glare at me and leave reviews under my jobs page to complain about a strip of fabric on my face. Sometimes I just wanna say fuck it, and stop masking, but I don’t know if I could move on if I develop long covid from that decision

#_txt_#Covid conscious #plus there’s a lot more reasons like #I had one single Covid scare in 2020 and I didn’t end up having it but it was in a specific situation that was stressful and traumatic #plus i can’t control my facial expressions so I always look either bitchy or insincere. hiding my face is easier #plus plus I just care heavily about disability. I’ll accommodate for the safety of immunocompromised and at-risk people #and more personal ones I choose not to share. but the reason doesn’t really matter I guess #idk I might delete later. I don’t feel like I have the right to complain about something I’m technically doing to myself

Alex Stardew they could never make me hate you

#_txt_#stardew valley

I hate how skunks are only known for being kinda stinky bc they’re actually beautiful animals :( look at her eat her apple

#_txt_#skunk #look at the skunks lil face auuuhhhhh 🥹

Worst part of being the persecutor + anger holder is knowing how much shit is my fault. Like, it’s because of me that the whole is viewed by others as a mean and hateful person. Every time we had a friendship end on bad terms it was because of me. The others got to have that “oh I’m not a bad person, because it’s not me” realization when we realized we’re plural, meanwhile I got confirmation that I’m not only a bad person, I literally exist to be a bad person. And like, fuck. I don’t know what I can do about it. I don’t know how I can reverse any of the damage I’ve done to us and our reputation

#_txt_#𐕣 #persecutor #anger holder #plural #faaaaawwwk #I’m fine ig just fronting when I don’t wanna be + overstimulated #damn I’m lucky enough to be in a system that barely has inner sys conflict and I just. mmmmmdgngnjdn feel like I AM the conflict #might delete later if I get embarrassed idk

Actually insane how much my mental health improves on days I don’t work. I know nobody likes to work, but my current job is straight up extremely unhealthy for me. I’m going to start taking classes soon, really hoping I can switch to part time work then. If not I might just straight up quit to focus on education, it won’t be fun to be unemployed but at least I would still have a goal to focus on

#_txt_#this sounds like I’m whining but tbh I’m just rlly looking forward to getting a degree #haven’t settled on a specific profession I want to have in the future. but I know I want to work with abused/mentally ill kids #maybe it’s the inner child yearning but I want to prevent at least one person from going through what I had to go through alone

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