May 30
Dear Sophie:
Remember that time I said life was smiling at me in some ways, and everything would be fine? Yeah, well, I got that wrong. Life sucks again.
I made dinner two nights ago. For the first time in a while, I actually put some effort into it. Like I still appreciated the art of good cuisine as I used to. I was expecting Antonio to show up, beautiful Antonio with that scar above his right hip. The army guy I've been telling you all about. He didn't show up.
They found him this morning, around sunrise. Someone dumped his body near the anacostia river. I figure they must've left his remains there past midnight, probably around 1 or 2 in the morning... What a shitty morning. I was called to the station an hour ago, at half past nine or so.
I'll tell you anything I find relevant for you to know, Sophie. In the meantime... I need to go for a walk.