💭 Sin and Eldon (hitting you back with this one xD)
"Do you know what he is? The kind of things he's seen, done, and is willing to do? You do, don't you? and it excites you. Maybe it's what drew you in to start with- but Raziel does not love. He can play a pretty pretend at it, for you, but when the night comes to a close, it will always be a matter of possession. You are not a partner, or a friend, or a lover, you are a thing. A belonging. And if you deny them even once you are me. Do you know what sort of vicious cycle you welcome in? When the bruises and bitemarks are still fading and you feel wanted does it chase away the knowledge he's cold at the core? I suppose it doesn't matter. I can't save the people who don't want my help, I can hardly save myself from the black hole of his want. But I wonder. When he whispers salvation the way the two of us did when we met- Do you believe it like I did? Does the want to see the good in him suffocate that little voice? Or do you know he's full of shit- and simply not care, Eldon?"
"It scares me- to recognize I see the survival of someone who perhaps never knew what he was getting into as secondary to my path. But if you stand between me and what I am afraid will someday need to be done- I will ask God for a kinder place to lay your head than the one Raziel brings to our doors."













