Sin: 💭 Esther
"I love you. And it eats me alive, like a starved dog. I watch you hurt, I hand you the tools to do it, and when you collapse in my chest in a haze I wonder if I am the reduction or the harm. I wish I was more than I am. I wish I had known Abel's passion and drive when all this started. I wish the things I had lost in that house were my hungers, for the flesh, for bloodshed. I am a thing born and bred to kill, No shepherd but a wolf drooling and circling the paddock. I suppose there's two, here. I can blunt my teeth all I want, but it is in my nature to destroy. Perhaps that is why I insisted it was me, you sought your chemical peace alongside. I lied, maybe, that it was for your sake when underneath it all, all I wanted to do was consume. Because that is my nature. I fight it tooth and nail and it always surfaces again."
"I love you. And I want to make that statement as simple as I can make it. A decade your friend and years something more I want to shout it from the rooftops that you are worth the flesh you are made from if anything because I am a selfish, selfish thing and to me you matter. Instead I feed your addictions like you feed mine. and I lie."
"Everything is not okay. I love you. And I'm scared."
