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Satisfaction

Satisfaction

Prolonging the inevitable destined quietus No longer a victim of the system, where extortion was inflicted Remitting… giving back to those still framed in my picture A slight incision, splitting the rest of the stress To detest any and all things related Metaphorically cremated… let it go, then remake it So it fits back into your life like a puzzle piece recreated That’ll suffice for the time being, but you cannot change what God’s done Cause now you’ve been setup so all good things shall now come King-dom in order to escort those in need of any assistance As long as I have the skill, I’m willing to give… satisfaction Instead of lying to make them smile, I’d rather them hate me as truth and real As long as I am alive, I’m ready to strive… satisfaction Obtaining new friends, new goals, and recently… a girlfriend, who I adore and cherish This path that I now walk, is a resemblance of my future endeavors Forever aiming towards the target in front of me Stopping is out of the question till the infrared reaches destiny If there’s any lesson to be learned, it is that God put us here for a purpose Not a single one of us is useless in the plan he has devised for us Simultaneously writing and thinking about all I accomplished The bad choices I made, the better ones that I’m proud of Regardless it’ll all be in the grave, unless I suddenly vanish Then know I served my purpose, culminated in satisfaction

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The Life Of A King

The life of a King-

As I sit back and think about this girl that I made a queen Mind racing, relaying thoughts from a projection screen Watching movies with the sound off, Inkwell filter So it don't look like I'm crazy narrating this motion picture Playing the hero and the villain, protagonist vs antagonist Compassionate, yet intransigent to any sacrament Philanthropist... buying my way to the top Giving... but still forgot.... stuck in this selfless spot Trapped in Pandora's box, my ex's evil obsession The things that I been through, don't compare to this new inception My choice of words was growing up like a lyrical erection Viagra? Nah... it's just the tool that I was blessed with Used up, sucked dry... from a game called "Taking advantage" I kind of felt my nice guy, was a worthless tactic until I saw the truth and knew the x was problematic Which made my reactions erratic, when I caught her in a panic Grabbing all of her belongings with another man... again playing "Taking advantage" Painting this image on a canvas... there's more blood than tears It rained a little, but the fire in me wanted to kill... I couldn't do it Walk away, no more words to be said... A lesson learned, this spot for a queen, no longer afraid to go back out and keep on looking for God's beauty he made The life of a king... searching for queen... be brave Patience is golden, but staying focused has the reign

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Redemption

Redemption-

Pardon the silence in this asylum for mental bars Could never hide it, parental guidance his mama would call asking when he's gonna come home Even though his curfew became 3 in the morn His choices was decided from red eyed pilots and young patrons Weed heads and underage drinkers .... but saying no was suicidal Tryna escape with all these system flaws The symptom falls in the category of doing it on your own... so vital He struggles... but nobody was there to enlighten So he smokes and he drinks and he drinks and he chokes to his liking Provoked to a limit that was more exciting than frightening He never felt so good in his life... it became a hard to reverse cycle He thinks it's time to go home... He stumbles and falls alerting the dogs, trying to make it to the backyard To the back door where it leads to his room but he hears a strange call No words said, just noises... so he looks around He sees nothing, then suddenly falls down Blacks out and ends up waking up in a hospital dressed in a white gown Once again, he looks around, and see's family, friends, and one blurred out vision Maybe a person... a figment of his imagination Regardless... he saw the connection So he never questioned Gods plan for redemption... He knew this was his second chance for a life worth living

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Happiness

Happiness- 

A flame... my passion... it burns In the palm of my hand lies a vertex... a node... it molds, it forms Mapping out my life... a road... alone But still... I gotta learn right? On my own... Real tears that is clear as my soul War wounds from a sharp tool Historical events to share when I'm old But even though I lived a dark life There was that one light... That kept me climbing and climbing out of that black hole To where I am now... Disbelief in my  coldest story ever told To start this off just right with a little sad But I promise this end with the lights on My childhood was the happiest days of my life Utopia, a world I considered my own Even though I was kid other people despised A gem shined above my head like sims icons I stayed active... enjoyed my moment as a kid Even till this day, I kept the kid in me True happiness to spread my wings, eagle free ... Eagerly as I take flight, to the top in high speed A manifestation erasing every flaw that's in me Completely ignoring the troubled past beneath me Far from perfect... but an example is all I wish that you see Happiness... the best state,  for me to live... rent free.

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Perseverance

A life that's in the making... yea I'm a grown man but I'm still going through the phases From the stages of a kid, that I remember back when I first started feeling changes Future plans created while my memories erasing Forgetting my origin where I started From the bottom sky rocket into an orbit Still floating to keep the motion, where stars are known as potent While others are on roller coasters, riding each other's emotions I'm tryna remain focused, to live the life that I'm bleeding... Music, I die for it... so every scar IS needed To tell a bit of my story and freeze it for those who need it Mom and Dad don't support me that's why my talent's a secret Don't nobody else know me so certain things get repeated To a point where I can't keep going if it's something not meant for feeding But I'd rather remain twisted than straighten it towards misleading Cause readings is in the fortune... but paper is in the cookie's, taste it Write it down , so when I play it, you hear my lyrics on pages telling my story Do you see it when you look at me? Do I look like the image that I portray before you? Do I sound like that guy rapping so lyrical? Fun fact, I only rap to give a cent or two When I got something to say, I say it and say it true Of course music's my dream... But as I grew... I saw another platform for me to stand on and give to you To persevere against any obstacle awaiting, I will make it through I said I will make it through...I, will make it through, 3 times like beetlejuice I swoosh with every shot, and record it just for the proof Regardless of your approval, denial... My perseverance is fire And I will never retire because I love what I do.

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Disappoinment

Can you tell me what a man should do? About the drug dealing, dumb stealing watches and shoes That I was taking from my retail job unexcused All the girls that I cheated on and the one's I abused... the girls I had sex with, that one nigga I killed Not literally, but that death note was my fault still Intoxicating my mind, infatuated with knives Cutting myself deep, in veins screaming out loud But nobody, ever hears a gemini like me A pyromaniac who burned down houses for free I thought it matched my city, the eastside is what made me Detroit was my devil, the branch of sin was created Screaming "somebody help me!"... but no one can hear me Stuck in limbo with a pencil but my vision so blurry To see that I'm hurting... so I write even if no one can read it I still have my mouth to speak words and present it Mamas boy with traits from my father sleeping with different women Failing all relationships I was in, even ones I mended A disappointment to the point when I knew I needed a change For the better, this weather I'm hoping no more rain...

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Fantasy

Fantasy

It was a dream, repeating again Matter a fact, a fantasy, my mind wandering How I feel, it's a shame I can't even pronounce the name Of the word that I want to say or the feelings thats taking toll of me... I had to deal with the fact The simple life was kinda drawing me closer towards death A lonely nigga, cause inside was like a junkyard mess A heartless, with no bliss, or no kiss To free me from this aroma... Bottom of the ocean, I'm tryna swim Concrete blocks on both ankles require strength Drowning in my own misery, my own mistakes, my own sorrows Man I miss the bottle... Dry swallow... How am i suppose to pretend? When nobody realizes that really you're there Like eco share, taking money out your pocket, but you unaware No one cares, about the rock bottom not in college, Unemployed nigga with desires to step out of all the noise screaming but it's hollow You're a failure to the whole world... Till I met this one girl... I had to get closer and follow Walking pass beauty headed in separate directions A Mona Lisa in my rearview, I drove in reverse I couldn't take my eyes off her, staring at this perfection After sharing so much time, I found a new kind of fantasy Ecstacy on a different level, passion was seeping in, i inhaled a little It took effect immediately True happiness, I missed so much... hoping she is my final fantasy

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Power

What does it mean to have power? Step on a bug cause it was crawling? Save someone's life cause they was falling? Speak in tongues and heads is bowing? Make your sex partner cum twice like porn viewers watching? What if evil had the power? Would you succumb to what's it's after? Like Eve did to Adam? Or love it regardless if it's your favorite rapper, singer, actor Music or movies that meant something now became a ouija anthem So what's the answer? If power had a good side like Popeyes and KFC had If power was a good guy more so than a bad man Would you crave it, taste it, love it and see it as God's plan What does it mean to have power? Watch a black show on Starz network, I mean the word is the title Take away the pretty from a flower, and put it in a seed so it can blossom Now that's a strong power Here's what I think is power Be a leader, not a follower Give back to those less fortunate Become a hero not a conqueror Flush away all the bullsh*t Motivation from those that say they proud of us Talking bullies out of violence Never being a coward stand up, go and save peach from that bowser Not being paid for working all those hours? Your voice is a form of power "It's my money and I need it now!" Scream that over and over, I'm curious to know what happens after Regardless of what you think power means It's not a thing you can obtain With great power comes great responsibility to proclaim I feel we all got a form of some power Parental, Verbal, or physical Never abuse it, let others see it as miracle... Power