#aaaaaaaaaugh

[muzikalhyde]

im

SICK

AGAIN

[mousey-sprouts]

About to go into work with a fever and I can only describe the kind of porn I want to write due to how this is making me feel as “evil”

[skautism]

[kerorokai]

HEAVY SPOILERS FOR ZATO

im thinking about how near the end, before vorkuta-5 was wiped and corrected, asya kept repeating her name to herself in her internal monologue. she was cheery, but it still felt desperate. im asya. im asya. my name is.... whats my name? im asya. she cant let go. maybe she cant always remember why, but she doesnt want to let go.

and now im thinking about how as ira deteriorated, the last thing she knew how to do by herself was tap her name in morse. i-r-a. ira. ira. over and over. was she desperately clinging on to her identity too? the last of her... sanity? personhood? it was clinging on. she was clinging on, something in her was. i wonder what she felt in her last moment of recognition before she was gone.

[fartcanx]

thinking about Richard Sullins again

[whumpawaydarling]

i am so tired

[whatthebec]

YES!!! YES THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT HE THINKS

[eye-5]

lucky if we’re speaking on holidays!!!!!!!!!!