Beautiful Boy | Self (feat. Aaron Plushenko)
Close your eyes,
Have no fear,
The monsters gone,
He's on the run and your daddy's here,
Beautiful,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy,
"Sofia, you have to push, on my count, okay? One, two, three... push!"
The doctor's voice could be heard above the hustle and bustle in the room, scrubbed nurses relaying messages regarding her blood pressure and the baby's heart rate. She wasn't sure the length of time she'd been in the room, how many hours nurses and doctors alike had been coming in and out, telling her she was doing well and it was "almost time". Aaron was there now, standing beside her dressed in scrubs, a head covering hiding his hair (although she was quite sure he'd protested at least slightly) as he tried to comfort her, coaxing her along as the doctor did. The awkwardness between them was gone for the time being, the impending meeting of their son joining them temporarily.
The young princess's eyes were squeezed shut, new sweat forming on her already-soaked skin as she pushed with all her mind, a mild yell escaping her, exerted by her efforts. "I can't," she shook her head as she gasped for breath, a few tears escaping at what seemed to be a wasted effort. "I can't do it."
The nurses doted over her endlessly, shaking their heads and trying to reassure her, yet after the hours she'd spent in labor thus far, with all the pain and no baby to show for it, her willingness to try seemed to be fading quickly.
"Sofie..." his voice transcended the noise in the room, his green eyes demanding attention from her. He was eye-level with her now, his gaze daring not falter; hearing her nickname in his voice only made her more attentive to his words, the Russian's breathing still heavy. "You're one of the strongest people I know," his words were confident, sure. "I've seen you get through more than most people experience in a lifetime these last few years. You always come out a better person, even stronger..." Sofia's eyes were tired, as if the pain that had only intensified in the last few hours had depleted all the energy she had.
"We used to talk about this all the time, do you remember? How excited we both were about meeting our baby?" his question resonated with her, causing a few more tears to fall down her face. She nodded, the memory returning to her at his mention, that having been the first time he'd brought up the past since his return. "That's what's about to happen right now, Sof," he assured her, his eyes brighter than she'd ever seen them. "You've carried this baby around for the last nine months, I know you've thought about him every second of all that time. You're the only one that can bring him here to us, Sofia," Aaron told her gently, taking her hand as he squeezed it ever-so gently. "Come on, Sof, you've gotta push..."
The brunette gripped his hand, her sweaty bangs clinging to her forehead as she inhaled deeply, pushing as hard as she could as she fought through the discomfort. "That's it, Sofia... just like that," the doctor reassured her, a loud groan escaping her as she nodded. "Another one, just like the last..."
Before you go to sleep,
Say a little prayer,
Every day in every way,
It's getting better and better,
Beautiful,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy,
"One more, Sofia... one more big push and your son will be here," the doctor told the tired Russian, her nearly twelve hour labor finally coming to a close. "C'mon Sof, it's just one more... you can do it, you're almost there... " Aaron's voice, accompanying the doctor's as he continued to persuade her, the excitement and encouragement evident.
A deep breath came before the moan, a yell following as the brunette pushed with every ounce of energy she had left in her tired body. She didn't stop... not until she felt the relief she'd been working toward for the last twelve hours, and the shrill cry of her son as he took his first breath.
The delivery room was filled with his cries, and his weakened mother only caught the slightest glimpse of him before her body forced her eyes closed, reveling in the reprieve. She felt Aaron leave her side, no doubt following the doctor to ensure that nothing go wrong. A few tears escaped her eyes, coaxed by hearing the little person she'd thought about constantly, the anticipation to see his face nearly overwhelming her. She heard the doctor instructing Aaron on how to cut the umbilical cord, and although Sofia assume he was hesitant, when the doctor and the nurses took the baby across the room she knew he'd done it.
He returned to her in the next instant. "Sofia... he's perfect," the Russian relayed to her, his eyes teary. "You did so wonderfully," he continued, the pride evident in his every word. HIs hand found hers instinctively, and she nodded, a small smile on her face. "You certainly did, and you have a beautiful baby to show for it," one of the nurses added, turning her attention from the table where her child was, still screaming as loud as his little lungs would allow.
The brunette became impatient to meet her son, sitting up slightly as the nurses urged her to stay put. "We're just going to weigh him and measure him and then he's all yours, alright?" one of them told her, her eyes growing more and more distressed with each passing moment she continued to listen to the baby cry. "Almost, Sofia... just relax, alright?" the doctor's voice echoed from the other end of the room, no doubt trying to give her the baby as soon as possible.
Another few minutes passed, Aaron looking desperately between Sofia and the doctor taking care of his son, knowing that holding her hand and promising her the baby wouldn't be with her soon wouldn't keep her satisfied for long. He didn't have to worry long; the moment he was about to ask the doctor what was taking so long, he arrived, the baby swaddled in a soft, blue blanket. "Sofia, here's your son... seven pounds, 11 ounces, 19 and a half inches long. He's in perfect health, as you can hear, I'm sure," he chuckled, all the while placing the baby gently in his mother's arms.
Tears came again the moment he was placed where he belonged, in her arms. He seemed to know, as well... after only a few moments of being there, his screams slowly began to cease, quieting to gentle groans and an assortment of different baby noises. She never tried to stop the tears, and she found herself not wanting to blink, to even lose sight of the baby next to her chest for even a moment in time. The brunette was unsure how long she'd stayed like that, her breath held as she went over each of his features, once, twice.
"Hi," she breathed, her voice just barely a whisper. "I've been waiting so long to meet you."
Out on the ocean sailing away,
I can hardly wait,
To see you to come of age,
But I guess we'll both,
Just have to be patient,
Yes it's a long way to go,
But in the meantime,
Before you cross the street,
Take my hand,
Life is just what happens to you,
While you're busy making other plans,
"I counted his fingers and toes. Five on each hand and foot.... I counted twice, just to be sure," her doctor said with a gentle chuckle. A single of Sofia's fingers brushed the baby's nose, tears still gently falling from behind her lashes as he opened his eyes, the color immediately sending a jolt through her system. They were the most beautiful shade of hazel, a darkish brown with delicate hints of green... the perfect combination of both his mother and father. The little hair he did have was lightly colored, a blonde much like Aaron's; his cheeks were round and rosy, his nose rounded as well, similar to hers.
"I'll leave you two for a few minutes," he noted quietly, chuckling gently as he realized Sofia's gaze was unwavering.
"He's amazing, Sofia," Aaron told her quietly, brushing his finger along his son's cheek quietly. His other hand rested lightly on his former wife's shoulder, massaging smoothly, comforting her. "All the times I imagined what he would look like," she began quietly, sniffing. "All those times... I never could've imagined he would look like this... that he'd just look like- an angel."
"Did you come up with a name, while-?" his statement was cut short, clearly not wanting to bring up his absence. A stagnant pause overtook the room, hanging between the pair, yet the noises coming from the baby only a few minutes old the only sound. "A few," she told him gently, looking up at him for a moment before her gaze returned to her son, the tears finally ceasing.
"Whatever you want, Sofia," Aaron told her, somewhat forfeiting his own opinion, most likely due to the fact that he'd never been there to discuss it with her when he should've. "I had a bunch of ideas, but looking at him... I can only think of one," she admitted quietly. "What is it, Sof?" he asked her, his eyes fixed on the baby she held in her arms as well.
"Andrew," the brunette said with a grin, the sound of saying the name out loud resonating with the image of his face, the perfect match that she hadn't seem to come across until now. "Andrew Joseph."
"It's perfect," Aaron agreed as the baby opened his eyes, both his parents visible. "He's perfect," she concluded again, her finger brushing his cheek gingerly. "Andrew, our little Andy..."
Beautiful,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy,
Darling,
Darling...