thinking about amane’s cult and how they likely don’t hate healthcare but they don’t partake in it gave me this messed up thought that in Amane’s cult if a kid, baby, elderly or any person had gotten a life threatening injury or illness no one would take them to the hospital because it goes against their trial and natural order, and that person dies.
Yeah :(((((((( It's not that they hate it, it's just that it's not in god's plan, which gradually twists it into a scary, sinful thing. It scares Amane, especially after this knowledge is quite literally beaten into her, and makes sense why she'd lash out at Shidou for being such a beacon of healthcare. It makes me wonder about her mindset when she was helping the cat -- for her to offer aid after everything, it means she was tired of watching things die. How many friends and family did she know that got hurt and got worse? How many died while she was told it was meant to be? How much pain was she in to risk her own safety over a wild animal if it meant not losing anything else dear to her? (And then she lost it anyway!!!!) Her life has just been full of so much unnecessary pain and death.
A slightly different topic, but it also tears me apart thinking about her visiting Mahiru’s cell when she's being treated for her injuries, since Amane’s never had experience seeing people in hospitals before. She must have been at such a loss -- she doesn't know the right thing to say in that situation. Trying to say the only thing she knows gets her scolded and maybe even removed from the room. Most of all, she has no experience handling the emotions that come with it. She knows how to encourage someone's spiritual journey, she knows how to hold hope in those situations, but how does she process the grief of slowly losing someone she cares about, while also hearing them willingly choose Hell over Heaven?
